Burning Desire [R-18]

C H A P T E R - T H I R T E E N

It's been a week since it happened.  Lagkatapos malaman ng director namin ang nangyari sakin at ginawa ni Arya ay dali dali niya agad itong itinawag kay Mr. Cruz but Mr. Cruz doesn't care at all as long as her daughter is in good condition.

Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko kay Arya. Pagkatapos ng scenaryo na iyon ay nagsinungaling ako sa director namin, kung bakit hindi ko ka-agad iyon itinawag. Hindi ko rin sinabi na ganoon ang ginawa sakin, bagkus nagsinungaling ako at pinasaringan na pinagbataan ako gamit ng ballpen. Alam kong sobrang bobo ng pagsisinungaling ko pero alam ko na maniniwala siya, dahil nagawa narin sakin iyan ng dati kong paseynte.

Binigyan lamang ako ng dalawang linggong leave para makalanghap ng sariwang hangin at makapag-relaxed ako sa nangyari.

Huminga ako ng malalim habang nakaupo ako sa home office desk ko at binuklat lahat ng journal notebook ni Arya.

"After her outburst, she will not attend any sessions. Calling her father about this will only trigger her more."

Iyan ang huling nakasulat sa last page ng pangatlong notebook na aking binasa. Para akong nagbabasa ng buhay ng isang tao sa pamamagitan ng aking propesyon.

Sa totoo lang ay sobrang problematic ni Arya, at a very young age she really have a complicated life. I don't know why his father lets her be like this without guidance. Perhaps it's due to his busy schedule, leaving no time for communication with his daughter. But there's something missing or odd about this.

Since her mother died when she was young, Arya has been controlled by not being allowed to be with her friends or by being kept isolated. I placed my eyeglasses on the desk and folded the journal. I sighed as I stared into space, pondering how I could get her to attend her sessions again despite what happened.

Hindi ko na namamalayan na, sobrang bilis ng paglipas ng oras at alas singko na. Dali dali naman akong naghanda ng maluluto at darating na ang mag-ama ko.

Hindi rin alam ni Alex kung ano yung tunay na nangyari, kailangan ko gumawa ng kwento para di siya ma-intriga lalo, alam kong nagsisinungaling ulit ako pero kailangan kong gawin.

After cooking dinner, the sound of the door opening caught my attention. My son running towards me, wrapping me in a tight hug. "Hello, Mommy, what have you prepared?" he asked, his voice oddly mature for an 8-year-old.

I gently brushed his hair with my fingers before responding. "Your favorite, chicken adobo," I replied, a warm smile gracing my lips. "Now, off you go upstairs and get ready," I instructed. With a nod, he scampered up the stairs to his room, disappearing behind his door. "And remember, no iPad yet!" I called after him as he closed it.

"How was your day?" I asked Alex, leaning in to give him a kiss on the lips.

He responded by wrapping his arms around me from the back, he kissed my neck that gives me tickle. "Foods smells great" He said. I chuckled as I know he didn't mean the food but me.

"You'll eat this tasty food later" I teased him back and he smile knowingly

Kumalag ito sa pagkakagapos  at humarap sakin. "Mas gusto ko andito ka sa bahay" paglalambing nito.

I pouted " Napag-usapan na natin to" mahina kong pagkakasabi, na sakto lang upang marinig niya

He nodded. " I know, I know.." dismayang boses nito. Umupo ito sa sofa at hinubad ang sapatos.

I sit beside him. "U know that I like working, and Axel will be in college soon I want to secure his education" mahinahong, mahabang lintaya ko.

He stops what he's doing. "You know I can provide your needs, axel needs" pangungumbinsi niya.

That makes my right eyebrow slightly raise.

"Honey , I know but it doesn't mean you can't provide, I just stay here in house and do chores and being a housewife, it will bore me to death" I said, slightly, chuckles cracking a joke. Avoiding the tension that leads to arguments.

He places both of his feet in the couch. "What's wrong being a housewife, you can take care us very well" his voice slightly becoming tense.

That makes me look him being disappointed. "So you're telling me I did not take care you two well? " it can be heard in my voice sounds of irritation showing.

"That's not what I mean" He quickly replied.

Tumikham ako at bago pa ito magsalita ulit na mauuwi lang sa pagtatalo ay tumayo na ako at pumunta sa dining table.

Tanging kami lang ng anak ko ang nag-uusap sa hapag kainan, dahil nawala lang ang mood ko ng i-open ang topic na gusto niya lang akong maging housewife o dumito lang ako sa bahay.

Bago pa kami ay naikasal na i-plot na namin ang mga kanya kanya naming gusto kagaya ng pag-grow namin sa kanya kanya naming career. Alam niyang ito talaga ang propesyon na gusto ko at pinagusapan na namin iyan, pero bakit lagi niya inuungkat yung mga bagay na matagal na naming napag-usapan at napagkasunduan.

I was washing dishes when I saw him, getting out of the bath. I did not said a word to him since I was disappointed on how he keeps on insisting that I should only stay in the house doing what a traditional wife should.

I'm not like that, he know me before we even married, and now he will keep me in this house to take care of them.

There's nothing wrong being a housewife but he already knows that I wanted to make my own money, provide also to my son with my own work and grow as a person, as me, not only being a mom and a wife.

Ano pa ba ang gusto niyang gawin ko, bago siya dumating naka ready na ang lahat. Ako pa nag-hahatid sa anak namin dahil baka ma-late siya sa trabaho niya. Nagluluto ako ng breakfast, inaasikaso siya lahat ng kailangan bago ako pumasok. Kapag gabi na ay nauuna pa akong umuwi para ipaghanda sila ng makakain, ayusin mga gamit niya para sa trabaho niya bukas.

Hindi naman naging hadlang yung trabaho ko para hindi ko magawa ng tama yung pagiging asawa at ina sa anak namin. Kaya hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit nagkaka-ganyan na naman siya.

Pagkatapos kong maghugas ay kumuha ako ng alak sa shelf, bourbon ang napili ko, kinuha ko iyon at nagdala ng baso sa desk ko para ipagpatuloy ang aking pagbabasa ng journal ni Arya. Ginagawa ko ito para mas maunawaan at makakuha ng insight sa mga bagong hakbang na gagawin ko.

Nang maramdaman kong masyado na akong maraming ininom ay nag matrcha na ako paakyat sa kwarto. Doon ay nakita kong nakahiga na nga si alex sa kama, dahan dahan akong lumakad, sumampa sa higaan para lang di ito magising.
Nagulat nalang ako ng bigla itong yumakap sakin at humingi ng tawad sa nangyari kanina. Tinapik ko lang ito para sabihing matulog na at tinalukuran kong humiga, dahil nagtatampo parin ako sa naging unting pagtatalo namin dahil lang gusto niyang masunod yung gusto niya na.