A Girl

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Loneliness isn't a feeling it's a disease maybe we can call it an addiction that too a very dangerous one that is which we can't get rid of that it's basically consuming your whole

      As a girl who was born in a middle class family these things are so quite normal especially when you are a second child and when your older sibling is a boy. No matter how they say that you are my favourite it's the least thing that you have to understand that it's not the truth especially not in my family

     I used to believe that I am the favourite one in my family until I am slowly realising that I am wrong no matter how many times they said that, their actions left me confused.
Every single time I fought with my sibling and how many times he said that I am the favourite I don't believe it because I thought I am the favourite one until I realised what he is saying is true

      They have restrictions for me as I am a girl and they are not for my brother because he is a boy. He can talk however he wants and do whatever he wants but not for me because according to them, I shouldn't do that, this and what not

      I accept that it's for my good but they are sometimes where it feels like a bird locked in a  cage restricting it to fly , do whatever it wants and I don't know what they will achieve if they do that in this fast generation

        And that goddam look they give when we don't do or behave like what they expect and make a big scene of it. I don't know What's the use of it? Why should u have to do it ? Is it to make us guilty?

       Maybe once, twice or thrice you may be successful to make us guilty but not all times sooner or later it will be like you are manipulating us to do everything in your way

     You may do everything for us until we are incapable of doing small things or u don't do anything for us and not letting us learn it in our own way, this may feel good for u , but not for me honestly , it makes us feel like a shit

   Yes I wanna shout, throw things and cry sometimes but I don't wanna do that but I still shout whenever I am angry. What you don't know is I don't like it but have to do it and now I am having anger issues thanks to you

  
    Do you know what I want ? I want peace , release me from my cage, support me whenever I say something and say it to me what your suggestions and ways but don't compel me to do that or this, and don't ever kill the child who wants to be simply happy

     Let us do everything in our way, let us fall , let us fly , let us get up on our own , let us climb, let us know how society is .....