A Girl

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     She is nothing but an ordinary child who is born in a beautiful family at least that's what she thinks

      Thinking about being born in a family who loves her more than anything in the world but there are times where she got in a dilemma whether she got it right or wrong

HER'S POV:

      I  thought nothing more bliss than being born in this family where everyone loves me or atleast that's what I think

     As a child I am the same innocent , cute and a beautiful , childish kid and definitely not a quiet one. People used to praise me and the gullible me believed whatever they said

     Being born as a second kid, i know very well how things are, how people love 1st born more than second born which ofcourse we won't believe it until we reach adolescence

     I got to know my parents used to enjoy their life , went to movies, trips, do birthday parties and what not but sadly all these stopped as soon as I landed in this earth and I don't know what's the exact reason is ...... And I still wonder why? Why do they stop? Am I not worth it?

     I know I am not a silent kid when I am a kid. I would like to say I am a type of bully who doesn't like when someone says anything against me and I would fight for my right

     From childhood to till now I always listen to the so called relatives of me saying how good my brother is, how much he loves everybody and how he shows affection and all but I never heard them saying the same things about me not even in my dreams making me want to ask - hello guys am I invisible to u?

     U may wonder is she some kind of jealous kiddo, yes I am a jealous bitch. I fight for my attention since the moment I born

For example my brother don't need to fight for things he just need to ask where as me have to fight for it for hell knows how long... Even I forgot sometimes getting sick of fighting for every single goddam thing

    I began to hate my life when I began to know I have to ask for permission for school or college fees not just once or twice but every time. It's feel hopeless and u can't do whatever u want because u are helpless becoz at last u have to stand infront of principal's office for permission for extension for fee payment and there are days where I am in home because we are unable to pay the fees

       I know it's a common thing becoz not everyone born with silver or golden spoon but wht makes me sad is everyone around us is developing while using detoriating from being able to do anything to have to think whether we should buy this ? Is it necessary to buy this?

     I lost all my desires and I am ashamed to ask myself when was I last happy??

Hey all......... That's all for today

Bye bye 👋🏻