Ponyboy's POV:
First I go upstairs to me and Soda's bedroom to get my notes for everyone. I can't do this. I grab my notebook and rip out the notes for Soda, Dar, Two-bit, and Steve.
Dear Soda, I'm sorry. I'm sorry i have caused you so much trouble always and I'm sorry for doing this. I'm a murderer and I deserve this. I can't do this anymore, everything has been so hard for me lately, and I know it's been hard for you too but I can't handle it. I hate myself. Everyday I wake up with regret and wishing I didn't wake up that day. This is not your fault. I'm so sorry. I love you.
Love, Pony.
Then I go and rip out Darry's note and read it over.
Dear Dar, I'm sorry I've always been such a burden, I know I've been a lot to handle lately and I want to thank you for putting up with me. I know we have never had the greatest relationship but I love you so much and i'm sorry for doing this to you. I'm a murderer, another mouth to feed, that's all. This is not your fault at all. I just can't do this anymore. I'm sorry for being the way I am, I wish I was different. Don't worry, I'll say hi to Johnny and Dally for all of y'all. I love you Darry.
Love, Pony.
Now for Steve and Two-bits notes.
Dear Steve, I know you don't like me and you've only been nice to me because you had to. You probably won't care but that's okay. I'm sorry that I've put you through hell, but luckily I won't be here to do so anymore, right? It's not your fault I'm doing this.
Love, Pony.
Dear Two-bit, we haven't ever really gotten along but you are still like a brother to me, and I'm doing this for a reason. It's not your fault I want you to know. I just can't handle all of this anymore i'm sorry. I love you man.
Love, Pony.
All of them look okay enough, I'm ready.
(PS. SORRY THIS ONE IS SHORT, ITS REALLY JUST THE NOTES FOR THEM BUT AGAIN IM SORRY!!)
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𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘧 𝘪 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳? - 𝘗𝘰𝘯𝘺𝘣𝘰𝘺 𝘊𝘶𝘳𝘵𝘪𝘴 (𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘖𝘶𝘵𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘴)
Fanfictionafter Johnnycake and Dallas' deaths pony has been a mess. he doesn't know what to do anymore and wonders if he'll ever get better. he doesn't, but then he "realizes" he won't get better, he tries to do something that he will regret and it'll change...
