𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘧 𝘪 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳? - 𝘗𝘰𝘯𝘺𝘣𝘰𝘺 𝘊𝘶𝘳𝘵𝘪𝘴 (𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘖𝘶𝘵𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘴)

Golly, Pony?!

TW: SH + SUICIDE ATTEMPT
Ponyboy's POV:

I go to the bathroom after grabbing all my notes, I'm scared, but I know it's for the better. Everyone will be better of without me.

I go ahead and grab one of Soda's extra blades out of the right drawer under the sink, I take a few minutes to just look at it, to gather up the courage. But as soon as i'm about to do it I hear a knock on the bathroom door, It's Steve.

"Hey Pony? You know I really didn't mean that right? Sorry."
"Oh yeah I know you were joking! I just want to take a shower, you know?" I say, lying.
"Mhm." I hear him say as he walks away.

I need it to sound like Im actually washing myself so I start the bath. I make sure it's warm enough, all I have to do now is wait for it to get full, Im not gonna bother taking off my clothes because i wouldn't want them to see me like that when they find me, cause it already won't be a pretty view, don't need to worsen things up by being naked.

Im not pretty when Im naked.

Sodapop's POV:

Steve's an asshole sometimes. He's still my buddy, but I don't like how he treats my kid brother.

"You apologized to Pones right?" I say as I see Steve walking downstairs.
"I did, he said he knew I was joking."
"Then what's taking him so long?!" Dar says obviously getting angry.
"He said he was taking a shower."
"Okay." Me and Dar both say.
Two-bit suddenly says "Did you hear the shower or bath start?" Something I haven't even thought about.
"As I left, yeah."
"Oh, k." Two-bit says, he sounds worried, I mean I am too but he sounds like he's thinking of something else, but then he speaks again.
"Y'all don't think Ponyboy is gonna do anything to himself right?"
"Nah he's too chickenshit to do that!" Steve says while chuckling.
"Oh shut the fuck up Steve!" He snaps.

After that we all stayed silent, thinking. We were all thinking the same thing, what if Pony is actually going to do anything to himself?

I interrupt the silence, "That's it, I'm going to check on Pones."
"I'll come too." Dar says.

Ponyboy's POV:

I'm ready. I step in the bath, it's warm. I look at the blade once more before looking at my left vein, I cut it.

"ugh!" I whisper scream from the pain, but it's not deep enough, not good enough, so I go deeper on the same mark.

I hiss in pain, but now it's gushing out blood, I want to do more. So I go even deeper on that cut, blood squirts out onto the bath tiles.

"That's good." I say while thinking 'for that arm.'

I move onto the other arm, the vein of my dominant arm, I repeat the process and golly, I hate to admit I love the pain. Well I at least should love it since it's gonna be the last thing i feel. I lover my arms into the water, it stings for a minute because of the warmth but I get used to it.

As soon as I dropped my arms the bath water was painted red. I wonder how they'll react to my dead body? By now my vision is getting fuzzy and my mind is mush.

Then i hear someone, Two-bit? say 'Oh shut the fuck up Steve!" probably saying something about me. Maybe they do care? no, they don't. they'll be happy when your gone.

I know the voice in my head is wrong but I can't help but believe it, it sounds so real. I hear steps coming up the stairs but I don't even care. Im gonna take a nap, yeah.

Then I pass out.

Darry's POV:

As soon as me and Soda get up the stairs I can smell a faint metallic scent, oh no. Please tell me it's not what I think it is. I stop at the top of the staircase.

"Why'd you stop?" Soda says curiously.
"Do you smell that?" I say, cause I think I already know what's going on in the bathroom.
"No? Wait... No." Soda says, I think he knows too.
"Do you think..?"
"I don't know Soda, I don't know. Let's just check on him hoping for the best."

We get to the bathroom door, now the smell is strong. I don't hear anything, no water, no crying, no nothing, I can barely hear breathing.

I knock on the door, no response. Soda sets me aside and tries.

He knocks, no response. Then Soda says "Hey Pony? Are you okay in there?"

No answer.

So we try again, and all we get is silence.

"Dar?" Soda sounds like he's on the verge of tears.
"Yeah?"
"Knock down the door, please."
And that's what I do, but I still knock and ask if he's okay a few more times.

Knock one,
knock two,
knock three,
knock four,
it's knocked down.

But oh my God, the smell. Me and Soda are scared to go in but we do, first thing we see is labeled notes, no.
Second thing we see is the bathroom curtain closed.
Third thing we see is the bloody blade on the ground, no. Please no, I can't lose my kid brother.
We open the bathroom curtain. I hear Soda scream.

"Golly, Pony?!"