a 19 yrs old girl life from heaven to hell

life without mom

Good morning guys...hope u all r fine...and be happy..always
Last part me pdh liya hoga apne kaise...meri mumy muje chhod k chli gyi...ab unka Wapas aana mere Janam me to nii h..
Kya pta next birth me mil jaaye firse..❤️

Mumy ki death k next day m exam Dene bhi gyi but halat esi nii thi...ki exam de bhi paungi
Fir bhi maine exam Dene ki Puri koshish ki...fir m ghr aagyi..

Actually Hindu me ek ritual hota h teeja...us din unki psnd ka khana bnta h...wohi sb ho rha tha mere ghr me..raat me rakh rkh di thi zamin pr or khana bhi p humne window pr taang diya tha

Muje in sb k bare me kch nii pta tha...fir sb sogye the sbne bola tha ki agr so jaoge to tbhi aayengi mumy...
And raat me muje esa lga ki mumy ne mera haath pkda h.. muje unki presence feel Hui🙂

Fir m subah uthi to raakh k upr bhot sare pero k Nishan the...or jo khana tha wo bhi kha liya tha...m shock thi..kyuki mere smne ye sb phli br ho rha tha...sb thode thode khush the ki chlo khana kha liya mumy ne.. 🙂 fir mitti lekr haridwar chle gye the ghr k bde log...
Fir ghr wps aagye...

Next day Kanya bithayi...
Us din mama ne muje ek envelope diya jisme paise the or bola ki Aaj se tu hi humari bhen h...itna sunte hi m rone lgi ki ye sb kyu hua h mama..ji
Esa nii hona chahiye
Unhone smjhaya ki beta meri bhen bhot drd me thi...use jldi mukti mil gyi...kaisa lgta agr wo drd me jee rhi hoti to...m bss roye Jaa rhi thi...😭
Mama bhi rone lge the mami bhi rone lgi..

Dheere dheere sb log Jaa rhe the
End me bde papa  bdi mumy meri mosi or unki ldki ruke hue the ghr pe...
Bde papa or bdi mumy mushkil se 3-4 din ruke honge ...or literally unse humne ek kaam nii kraya ghr ka...jb sb log chle gye the..us k next sbne milkr thoda ghr ki saaf sfai krayi thi...
Itne me hi bdi mumy ne bola chlo ghr ka sara bekar saman chla gya...what the fuck!!!, tum ese kaise keh skti ho bhyiii Maine ignore Kiya

Khana bhi m mosi or unki ldki bnate the sath me...
Tb bhi unhone apne ghr Jake apni bahu k smne ro k dikha rhi thi ki mujse kaam kraya h...
Are bhyi phli bt to tumse kya kaam kraya h...
Jo tum ro k dikha rhi ho

Fir next month January me mumy ka birthday aata h...unka cake Maine or papa ne cut Kiya...papa or m ghr pe akele reh gye the...thoda rona aaya...🙂
Dheere dheere khud ko smbhalne lge...
M ghr ka kaam krne lgi papa bahr ka kaam krne lge..
Bss week me 1-2 br mama or mosi aa Jaya krte the
Lekin papa ki side wlo ne ek br mud k bhi nii dekha
Sochte the bure waqt me koi sth ni rhta....

Us k bd holi aayi....us din bhi rishtedaar the sare...sab sad the...humare yha pe first festival ko khoti holi bolte h...holi wle din bhi kch rishtedaaro ne apne rang dikhaye..

Mann krta tha chhodo kya hi kahe kisiko
Fir Mera result aagya mere 77% aaye the 12th board me...
Ab bari ki neet ki tyyari ki🙂
Maine apni coaching lga li thi 21st June se
Mere ghr se 1 ghnta lg jata tha coaching Jane  me
Daily m coaching Jane lgi to ghr k kam me problem aane lagiii...fir bhi himmat nii haari..papa ko bhi apne school Jana hota tha...
To m subah papa k liy roti bna k Jaya krti thi...7 bje m ghr se nikl jti thi..
Fir m wps aati thi 3 bje tk... literally ghr aane me esa ho jata tha ki ab himmat nii h kch krne ki...pure saal Maine Maggie pr kaati h zindagi...Maggie bna leti hu jldi BN jyegi...fir kaam krne lagti thi thoda bhot jo rhta tha
Fir padhne Beth ti thi...fir 7 bje tk papa aa jte the fir khana bnati thi..
Fir khana kha k papa so jte the m 11-12 bje tk pdh k so jti thi...muje itna bhi pta tha ki meri ache se padhai nii ho paa rhi kyuki Muje 11th -12th cls k chapters name bhi nii pta the...
Isliy muje thodi prblm aati thi... Lekin lgta tha koi nii kr lungi m..but mujse hua nii
Isi beech mama or papa ki ldai hogyi thi paiso ko lekr
Mama ne papa ko bol Diya tha kch...fir mere papa kaha shant rhne wle the unhone jamm k suna di...
Us din k bd se mama ne humse rishte khtm kr liye

Muje dono tarf se galti lgti thi ki mama ko ese nii bolna chahiye ki tum mere smne kahi stand nii krte... papa ne bol Diya ki abhi Teri aane wli saato pushte kharid lunga...fir bt bdhti chli gyi..

In November...2022
Jiski death hoti h us k liy diye lgaye jate h...
Us din bhi mama nii aaye...💔
Hum log chle gye the garh..side
Wha pr sare rituals kiye...
Sad hote hote wps aagye...

Fir mumy ki death ko hua pura 1 saal
Guys... believe nii manoge mere dono bhaiyo k exams chl rhe the...wo ghr pe nii aa paye...
Or us din ghr me akele m or papa the...kisi rishtedar ka phone nii ayaa..🙂 bhot bura lga muje... papa or m ghr me ese sad hokr bethe h...
Fir ek bhaiyya bhabhi rhte the rent pr wo humare ghr aaye fir raat k 12 bje tk wo humare sth ruke..wrna ek rishtedaar esa nii tha jo jhuthe muh se bhi dekh le aakr..

Dheere dheere ye saal bhi chla gya..🙂💔
Ab hua wo jisse meri zindagi narak bn gyi...Aaj bhi narak ki zindagi jee rhi hu🙂 wo m apko next part me btaungi stay connected ❤️