Horror is consuming her mind, her entire world seems to be collapsing before the man who is standing infront of her with his hidden and masked face like always. She wants to scream but her voice betrays her like always. She wants to hit him, wants t...
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Iam trying my best to heal. Not only just physically but also mentally, from inside, from the deepest core of my soul.
Not that the process of healing is easy. Not that i can do it fast, like blink my eyes, take two medicines, inhale two puff of other medicine and boom - iam as fine as before like nothing ever even happened.
It's not like that. But iam trying, iam trying my best to heal before i destroy the man who is hopelessly in love with me.
It's been two weeks since we first time got intimate after the incident happened and i woke up from coma after so long. Two whole weeks since Jung Kook made me felt good and alive despite being broken.
And since then, he had been trying his best to do the same, to kiss away my pain and sorrow, to make me feel like nothing on me had changed and he still loves me the same way he did before.
Where i keep feeling insecure about my way comparatively thinner and paler body with ugly scars, about my face which have a big healing scar which will probably remain in my face for the rest of my life, about the short hair that i cut while going through breakdowns, there Jung Kook keeps making sure to compliment me with love filled all over his eyes and face as he kisses my scars and caresses my whole body as if he can never get enough.
Jung Kook never commented before about my short hair after i had cut it but a few days ago he finally asked while brushing my hair,
" Why did you cut your hair though Doll? Were you trying to hurt yourself through it? Or by doing it? "
I shook my head and finally confessed to him saying everything that had happened that day which lead me to have this hair cut.
When i woke up from the Coma, struggling with nasty emotions and all, during that time, i saw the place of my head in the mirror where my hair was gone as if it was shaved. I immediately understood that it was done to perform surgery on my head and my hair were growing back to that area very slowly. It felt so bad back then and i thought it looked weird.
I had a breakdown remembering how that bastard hit me with that long stick on my head and i felt disgusted. I actually thought of shaving down my whole head and was about to do it but Roze came at the right time and saw me with the scissors and blade. She panicked way too hard, i could see it written all over her face but she helped me by convincing me that,
" It doesn't matter and your hair doesn't look that weird " which was just to make me feel better because i knew it looked actually bad
She then added that 'a little shaping will make everything better and perfect' and took that scissor from me. Then she gave me this haircut where my hair were upto shoulder length and the layers she did on it helped me to hide the shaved area of my head.
