Haven And Chaos

29) Fucking Maya in my head

My eyes remained fixed on the fine handwriting, reading the words carefully so as not to miss even a single letter. I was surprised Maya had written so many positive things...even went the extra mile to add some of Cindy's that were new to me.
The one that stood out the most was that Cindy had always wished I'd find a companion to share life with other than her. Maya didn't write too much on the subject, but it still baffled me. It was as if I was reading Cindy's inner thoughts. She sure had opened up a lot to Maya.

"...My Lord?" My secretary's voice slithered in my head, cutting my concentration.

I lifted my eyes, questioning her without the need for words.

She sat on the other side of the table holding all types of drinks for me.
"What should I tell Duke Whitsun regarding the postponed meeting?"

"Ah!" I put the essay next to my hip and relaxed into the luxurious seat, wishing it could absorb my worries as well. "Him?! Um, cook up something believable. Don't let him know he's under suspicion or he'll put up a strong wall against us."

"But My Lord, wouldn't it be better if you had a physical meeting with him to clear any misunderstanding? I fear he might ask too many questions which I may not be able to answer."

"Fuck!" I exhaled sweeping a hand down my face. We were flying from Georgia after Prince Abel summoned me for an official report. It was the first time I had seen him in almost a decade since it was always the Emperor handling the crown duties himself. But now it seemed he was exposing his crown Prince to the country's affairs, preparing him for his future duties.
He looked nothing like the little teenager I had seen but seemed to be more like his dad.

The next Emperor. The one who would hold the fate of all the states, and countries in the palm of his hand. It was still too early to tell what kind of leader he'd turn out to be. But I prayed to God that he'd be like his parents and rule with a human heart. If he turned out to be a tyrant, the whole world would be thrown into chaos once more.

Yes. A single person carried the peace of billions of people. One selfish desire would ruin hundreds of millions of innocents.

"Then go ahead and arrange a simple dinner."

"Would you like to meet at your house or his?"

My eyes narrowed on the woman. "Can't we meet in a restaurant?"

She shook her head gently. "You've been asked to limit public appearances due to the nature of your next assignment. Eyes are always watching you, My Lord."

"Mmm..." I agreed with her thoughtfulness, glad that she had such devotion towards me. But like everyone else, I was aware her loyalty was simply because she feared execution and implicating her family.
"My house. Inform the butler of it for preparation."

"Of course, my Lord."

I hated meeting with anyone who just woke up one day and felt like seeking my attention. Hated being the archduke since I couldn't even save the only person I had cherished the most in this dark world.
What was I fighting for anymore?
Who was I creating a future for?

I had never planned on having any more kids. Wasn't ready to settle or even have my baby raised by someone else. Wasn't ready to raise it myself. At the moment, I felt completely lost and hollow on the inside. Maybe it was time to see one of my psychiatrists.

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I spread my legs lazily on the patient's couch, bathing in the warm sunlight falling into the room from the wide window behind it.
"From what I gather, it seems this 'girl' has a great impact on your mental illness," Janet spoke from somewhere nearby while I busied myself finding a comfortable lying position to rest my sour body.

In the past, these appointments were only to satisfy the emperor's order and I would normally just come and doze off on this couch. But today I was genuinely interested in what she had to say that I hadn't figured myself. Wanted to hear her suggestions as well as see her adorable face. Maybe another hookup in this very office would help me get my mind off of Maya. Not in the hateful world, but in the lustful one where I heavily criticized myself.

Once more, I had woken up in the morning with a damp cum patch on my shorts. I had dreamt...dreamt of Maya's hand stroking my cock delicately as if tracing every inch of it to engrave in her mind and soul. I could still remember how good it felt being caressed by that soft hand that knew of no hardship. How warm and inviting it felt. Even though I didn't remember cumming due to my sleepy state, I was sure it must have been explosive from the amount of cum I had released.

Gawd!
Thank heaven the pillow had been in place when I awoke for she'd have felt my morning wood without a doubt.

"But you now have wet dreams while holding the person you despise the most...?"

I raised my gaze to meet her amused pair.
It felt like we were conversing more of acquaintances than a doctor-patient conversation. From the smugness in her probing eyes, I was sure she wanted every minute detail of everything.
But I was not about to pour out my shame to a woman I fucked. Sure our professional relationship was ruined that fateful night, but she had been helping me relieve tension from both mind and body since then.

"Why are you looking at me like that?"

Janet giggled closing her notebook. "Just curious what this girl looks like. She might be quite a sight if she's able to stimulate your body in ways I hadn't achieved."
She began unbuttoning her white long-sleeved shirt, a pair of foxy eyes trained on me as if telling me to watch her undress for me.

A smirk flashed on my lips at the jealousy painted on every inch of the gorgeous face that had always tried to please me.
She got up, the shirt falling and gathering around her feet while her hands started working on her skirt slowly and sensually.
Holding my eyes, Janet's body started moving towards me. Her skirt slid down her long slender legs, exposing a sexy lingerie that looked smoking hot on her soft curves.

She smiled and bit her lip.
"Want me to do all the work today? You seem tired already."

I nodded following her movements, loving her teasing as she ran fingers down my inner thighs until they reached my awakening cock. "This guy here sure doesn't seem tired. I wonder if it's because he wants to penetrate me, or..." Janet slid on top and straddled me to sit on my hard member. "Does he wish to taste the enemy's hole to decide how to punish her better?"

Ah, how had I forgotten her crude little demon? She never missed taunting me about my sexual life whenever we fucked. Sometimes I found myself questioning myself after hearing such vulgar statements. But they also helped me hear her honest thoughts and how to go about my troubles.

"I bet she doesn't even wear anything alluring."
Shit!
Now she was forcing my brain to picture Maya in such lingerie. Making me remember that night at the strip club.
"I know you're replacing me with her right now, am I wrong?" Janet leaned forward, her ass rubbing my cock.

She sent her hands to roam all over my chest till they slid at the back of my neck. "It's okay Gale, I'm here to let you face all your obstacles. I don't mind you fucking me with her in mind. You might get over this phase without any medications."

Right!
How would I fuck Maya?
I'd do it so hard that she'd lose the ability to walk for a day or two.