confused ✯ ruby rose

iii.

Ruby's eyes were focused on the road while my focus was on her. Why did she have to go and make me question everything I'd ever felt? Why was she so nice to me? Why was she so wonderful and beautiful and everything I could ever ask for?

When she diverted her gaze from the road to me, I jumped and looked away to the passing scenery out my window. The trees seemed really interesting to me then. I felt a serious tension in the car and I just wanted it to be okay. I didn't want to feel weird.

That was when I felt Ruby grab my hand and intertwine it with hers. I didn't want to look over at her, but my body betrayed me and I was met with her crystal eyes. I never knew what color her eyes really were. I would sometimes call them green, blue, or even gray fit sometimes, but they were really just crystal. I found myself lost in them at that moment, at least until she looked away. It seemed like minutes, but in reality it was only a second or two. 

Our silence was interrupted, "So are you going to tell me what's wrong or am I going to have to guess?" Ruby's eyes left the road for a split second to look at me.

"I don't know," I muttered.

"You do know; you just don't want to talk about it, right?"

I nodded. I will never understand how she understood me so well. It kind of frustrated me that she knew me better than I knew myself. "Yeah,"

"Charlie, you need to know that I'm here for you for whatever is going on. I want to help. I'm good at helping you, just like you're good at helping me. That's what best friends do." For some reason, when she said best friend, I felt a sting in my heart. I didn't want to be just friends. I hated that I wanted to be more, but denying it would only make it worse. I needed to embrace it. The only problem with it though was that it could ruin our amazing friendship.

"Can I, um, ask you something kind of off topic?" 

"Of course," she rubbed the back of my hand with her thumb, sending shivers down my spine.

"I have this friend that has confusing feelings for this other person, but they're afraid of what would happen if this other person didn't feel the same, you know? My friend is so worried that everything they went through together would be for nothing." I said, voice shaking. I was so worried that this would just give it all away.

"Well, I believe this friend needs to take the risk. If the other person doesn't feel the same way, hopefully, whatever they've been through will keep them together. Sometimes, the friendship is so strong and unbreakable that it doesn't matter what people go through together, they just are there for the other. D'you understand what I mean? Besides, if your friend doesn't take the risk, they'll be sorry they didn't." I took in every word Ruby said. Could she tell I was talk about her and I?

"What if my friend is too scared to say anything, Ruby? You should know they're scared of rejection!" I raised my voice a little. Shit, if that didn't give it away, I don't know what will.

We pulled into her driveway and Ruby looked at me with wide eyes, "Is the friend you, Charlie?" I nodded timidly. "Who's the other person in your life? Is it that Sam guy? I know you guys kind of had a thing a while ago." I was confused as to how she didn't know it was her. Maybe I had been a better actress than I thought.

"Um, well, no, not real-"

"Then who?"

Was I really about to tell my best friend my unsure feelings about her? 

Of course not.

"I just don't want to say anything until I'm sure, okay? Please understand, Rubes." I pleaded. I couldn't do it yet. I wasn't secure enough. Ruby let go of my hand and I immediately wished to hold it again, but she needed it to unbuckle herself. She stopped and gave me a worried look but then proceeded to unbuckle her seatbelt. I followed suit and we went inside. 

Ruby and I had to be quiet since her mom was asleep, but we managed to get to her room without turning on the lights or breaking anything. I sat on the edge of her bed and looked around awkwardly.

"What's wrong with you? You've been in here a million times and I've never seen you look around like that except for maybe the first time you slept over." she interrogated me. I didn't know what was so different, but I felt like I was in a boy's room. Like I wasn't supposed to be in here, and if I got caught, I'd be in deep shit, but it was Ruby. This was normal for me. I do this all the time. I tried to reassure myself with positive thinking, but it wasn't helping too much. 

"I dunno, something seems different to me is all. I feel like you added something to your wall." I lied.

"Um, no. You're an odd human being, y'know that right?" Ruby laughed lightly which made me smile wide. 

"Yeah, and so are you, so shut up, okay?" I laughed, but I was soon jumped on by my best friend. 

We both flew back onto the bed. She was straddling me, both knees on either side of my body and tickling me. This was the worst thing to be doing at one-thirty in the morning, but who cared.

I was laughing like crazy and her hands were all over me, but not in the way I wanted them to be. No, I couldn't think like that right now. 

I decided to fight back a little and grabbed her by her thin sides, tickling her until she was laughing so hard that she had to stop tickling me. Ruby's face was buried in my chest and I could hardly breathe because I had been laughing so much, but her being so close made it even worse for me. I wondered if she could hear my panicking heartbeat.

But when she looked up to me is when my heart started beating out of my chest like in the cartoons. Those eyes, so clear and mesmerising. Those lips, so plump and kissable. I just wanted to touch her, but not even sexually. I just needed to feel her.

Ruby was in between my legs and all I could do was stare at her. I tried to move, but I was so stuck under her spell. She smirked at me and pushed a strand of hair out of my face, tucking it behind my ear. "You're so pretty, Charlie, y'know that, right? You could have anyone you wanted."

I was shocked, to say the least. Could she have felt the same way as I did?

"I'm really not, Rubes," I blushed, trying not to make eye contact with her. Ruby took her finger under my chin and made me look at her. She was leaning in to me and I was going to let her kiss me. This was happening. My eyes were shut tight, and then

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK

We both jumped away from each other and acted like we were just chatting.

"Oh hey, Charlie. I didn't know you were staying tonight." Katia, her mother, was at the doorway, smiling at me.

"Hey, oh, yeah, I was bored so Ruby came to get me," 

"Do your parents know, sweetheart?" I nodded at her and she smiled wide. "Well, I was just seeing what all that noise was."

"We were just wrestling, mum. Go back to bed, I love you." Ruby rushed Katia.

"Okay,  sorry for bothering you, Ruby. Goodnight, Charlie. I'll see you in the morning. I love you both." Katia shut the door and Ruby and I both let out a sigh of relief.

That was too close.

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Woo! That was almost bad or was it? Katia seems pretty chill, y'know? 

This chapter got me going though. I was like, omg, omg, they are gonna flip their shit. Did you? Let me know!

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-rubyrose-