FOR KIMCHAY [Oneshot collection]

Why Don't You Stay

Kim just wanted to talk and confess everything to Porchay; his wrong doings and his feelings, when he went to Yok's bar.

But he ended up on the floor— drowning from his own blood.

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• TRIGGER WARNING •

- Heavy Angst

- Major Character Death

- No happy ending (well... maybe with a tinniest bit of "happy")

• READ AT YOUR OWN RISK •

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"That's Kimhan, our youngest! I raised him!"

The moment Porchay heard those words from Tankhun; the oldest from the 3 Theerapanyakul siblings, he had already decided to leave Kim. He can still remember how his chest started tightening up when Tankhun showed him their family photo, how Kim's eyes from the said photo stared right at him— almost like it's mocking him. He cried on his way back to his quarters that night and continued crying the next day, giving himself enough time to process everything he found out and to mourn for his feelings for Kim.

Since then; Porchay has blocked Kim's number. He wishes he can also stop loving the older that fast and easy— stop his feelings for Kim like it wasn't the best thing he felt deep in his tummy.

Porchay doesn't want to get involved with the mafia, he doesn't want anything to do with them— that includes Kimhan.

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Kim came to a realization that yes, he's in love with Porchay. It all came crashing down to him when Kinn almost lost his mind when Porsche left the compound with Porchay; the feeling, the longing, the love. Fuck, he's in love with Porchay.

It is not that hard for Kim to find where Porsche hid his little brother; at Yok's bar— which Kim thought is a very stupid move, knowing that it's a known bar where Porsche, Kinn, and Khun frequently visits.

Kim turned down Kinn's request for him to help out the main family as they are expecting an attack from the minor family anytime now. He said he doesn't want to get involved anymore and just left his brother wondering why— why his younger brother is so eager to leave the mansion.

While driving towards Yok's bar, all he has in mind is to confess everything to Porchay. He wanted to come clean and admit the reason why he approached the boy, why he suddenly offered to be Porchay's guitar tutor, and why he stayed even after knowing that the younger had no idea about his brother's whereabouts.

Kim knows that Porchay is avoiding him; he knew that when Porchay walked past him when he visited the mansion for an urgent family meeting. Porchay didn't look at him— not even glance at him, and he continued walking away even when Kim called for his name. Kim has also found out the same day that Porchay blocked his number— without any idea why.

Kim smiled to himself with the thought of freely telling Porchay what he feels. How he realized that he feels the same way as Porchay.