hopeless

Chapter 55

Aivans pov:

It's been 7 days since zion came back, let's say Nicholas dragged her back, the idiot was going insane without the woman, I was more shocked of the fact Nicholas is doing all of it for a woman who he could just kill her and her whole family,

I don't like how he gets weaker and weaker by her, like she got him under her loving spell or something, zion is usually cold, but she's a childlike woman who's forced to grow up early, she's toxic, she has been hurting Nicholas ever since they're close,
Whenever his mood shifts and without even asking what's wrong,

I know that he had an argument with zion, or zion isn't answering his texts calls while she disappears for hours and come back drunk in Angelina's arms, as much as I hate to say that

My brother is changed, because of a woman, he only cried for one woman, who's our mother who he's allowed to cry for, to cry till his last breath that's the only woman he's allowed to cry for,

But he cried for Zion, he actually breakdown and cries to see her again, to feel her again and have her back, he had multiple breakdowns that I'm myself ashamed to admit that it effected me too as well, the more he cries the more I was breaking down, If my big brother cry, beg and wants to be away from a world that he no longer is with Zion how the hell I am supposed to survive?

If the big brother who always protect me and famous of his controlled emotions the one who kills like a madman is going through all of it because of a woman,

It it was a normal woman, a pretty kind woman, the one we all accept her to be with Nicholas, a woman who's coming from a family that we don't have anything against, a woman who will love Nicholas no matter what, it was normal I would have been very happy for my brother, but here we are, out of All these people it's zion,

the woman he tried to kill her countless times, and the woman who he swears that makes her life hell, how am I supposed to survive this? How to support my brother when he's doing something more wrong than anything?

In a moment everything changed in his life ever since he starts to fall for someone like zion
She have been through a lot, which made her strong, wise and strong, and 𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐩𝐮𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞..
She can wrap Nicholas around her finger with a word,

with a glance or a touch, the man totally is down bad for her, he will go against the whole world for her to the return she just disappoint him..

Nicholas is ignoring her, trying to be away from her ever since they returned and took Melesa to the cells, but maive ordered none can talk to her tell he says so
I don't know how he can distance himself but he does, whenever we're at the club, while another man is all over the woman he loves,

he ignores but the glances and glares also the fact I have to hide multiple Bodies of the men who he have counted in the night that touched her, might sound crazy but the more he ignores the more he hurts, the more he breaks and becomes cold, he kills like madman,

When we go for missions, he risks his life most of the time, go at first, kill at first, being the one who's wounded more and end up in the clinic, sometimes buried and drunk he ends up at Zions room,
He goes inside all happy and stupidly happy drunk
Then when he doesn't find her sometimes he freaks out shouting demanding where's zion, where's the little fuckers who's his unhealthy obsession

"When did it starts" she asked, as she pulls out a cigarette, the shouting and cursing of my brother after he got drunk as fuck and made it worse when he saw some bastard being touchy with zion at the event of our anniversary of our company, she was beautiful let's say angelic,

we can't lie the beauty she has is disturbing and shit so she gets a lot attention from men sexually, from women for being close to her, break her or talk shit behind her because zion is on the top, and Nicholas isn't happy about it he hates when men glance her way with the eyes of wolfs whenever she enters the room with her usual confidence, her chin up her eyes cold

At the event she was wearing royal blue lacy shoulderless dress, with her black long hair covering most of her back, Nicholas hates that too, he hates when she shows off her beauty to everyone and she's not exactly his, the others can see her bare shoulders and arms, legs or anything related to skin he gets riled up and wants to kill off all the people here and fuck her over the dead bodies

As I said, he was drunk as me and Angelina helped him to his room but he kept refusing and saying I want Zion I have to let everyone knows she's mine no one gets to see her and nonsense of his drunkenness,

Standing by the balcony, anger hurt betrayal, tearing through my stomach, leaving a burning trail awake
Zion stood beside me,

her hands covered with blood she just came back from torturing Melesa behind her fathers back, a cigarette between her forefinger and middle finger the necklace I haven't seen her without the red shines under the light of the moon, staring ahead, forearms leaned on the riling

In a way her presence soothing as if she's my older sister, in another a hunting reminder of what could have been if she hadn't left, if she didn't make my brother miserable If she didn't come back at all

Smoke circled above her head like it did above mine the silence grows louder,

"When you left" she shot me a look but I couldn't help my own words, as much as Nicholas changed I'm also concerned about my brother the one who' used to be always in control and was a robot
If she felt any guilt, she's doing a great job by masking it, it wasn't her fault, 𝐢𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐬𝐧𝐭 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐚𝐮𝐥𝐭 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐚𝐬 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨..

I pushed against the reanimated and turns to her,
"How have you been" the words sounds forced, I care for her, she's the woman who my brother loves
She's also the woman I almost see her as my big sister after everything she done to my brother,

But even the thought of hearing her rejoicing in her time away was enough for the rumble of anger start boiling on my veins

"It was harsh"

"I figured"

"How about you?" She finally looks at me dragging her cigarette with bloody hands,she suck in a harsh breath at grating small talk, it was insulting almost

"I've managed, with being Nicholas's shadow" I roll my eyes at her she frowns, she kept silent for a while
The cool braze of spring hits my face

The air is heavy with everything that wasn't being told out loud,

"Aivan I-"

"Don't" I cut her off, almost immediately something flashed over her face with the immediate rejection

"I don't want to hear it zion"

"What do you want to hear then" she throws the cigarette out of the balcony

"What do I wanna hear? Are you kidding me?"

"You ruined everything zion"

"I don't care anymore aivan, you should mind your own business from now on" she stated and makes me even more furious

"Stop pretending I saw"

"Saw what?"

"I saw the way you look at Nicholas still"

"I have to let it go"

"You ruined it zion, you ruined everything"

"I'm not sorry either so grow up" her harsh words cuts through the air

"Don't be,idiot, it's done already"

"It would have been nice, to see how much Nicholas could do for you, if you'd let him"

"We weren't meant for each other aivan" I was angry, angry like I'm a kid of a divorced parents who's my brother and zion,

"Even for a moment, the moment he looked at you when you weren't looking , the moment you let him sleep in your bed when he came back drunk and bloody, the moment felt like y'all were"

"For fuck sake," she breathes out and walks to the exit of the balcony

"Take care of Nicholas, aivan, until I come back to my senses" there's where she left, I rubs my face as I felt like an idiot for thinking zion would change for Nicholas, she never did maybe never will..

Disappointment, Nicholas did not know love is this.