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-Music

The boys and I had been in Florida for weeks, they had been working nonstop for weeks.

We were sitting in the studio, "Y'all ready to release the album?" Pouya asked "Hell yeah" Scrim said and Ruby nodded.

I was laid out on the couch, on my phone "Angel, You alright ma?" Ruby asked and I shrugged, Me and Pouya had gotten close.

"I need a blunt" I told Ruby, "Why what's wrong?" Pouya asked "Just anxious as fuck for no reason" I said, I had stopped taking the pills again and it was getting rough again.

Ruby got up, walking over to me handing me a blunt and a lighter. "You got this shit ma"Ruby said kissing my forehead. I sighed, sitting up putting the blunt to my mouth. I lit it up, sighing as I inhaled the smoke.

I laid back on the couch with the blunt in my mouth, Scrolling on my phone. I sighed, before sitting up and putting the blunt out.

I walked away to the bathroom, reaching into my pocket and doing a line of coke. Wiping my nose, chiling before going back to the room.

"you alright..?" Ruby asked and I nodded, "I'm alright" I said sitting down.

Soon by September, the boys had finished their EP with Pouya, and we headed back up to shitty ass new Orleans.

I had decided, since the boys had dropped. I should drop some shit as well. It'd be good too keep us balanced.

So I worked my ass off for weeks, working on beats and just slaving over the mic because I wanted to be good like the boys.

I stayed in the studio at my house for almost a month, I didn't ever really leave to go see Ruby or Scrim.

Soon, I got up out of the studio because I heard someone knocking on the front door and when i answered it was Ruby.

"Hey ma, we ain't heard from you in week. You alright?" He asked and I groaned "Yeah, I'm fine I've just been working on my music" I said and he smiled. "Mind if I chill?" He asked and I shook my head "No I don't mind" I said stepping aside and letting him in.

I walked back into the studio, listening to some of my lyrics I had. Ruby followed behind me in the studio, we sat and talked for awhile.

"Can I ask you something? And please don't lie to me" Ruby said and I nodded, "Are you using?" Ruby asked and I sighed.

"Yeah, but it's not bad" I told Ruby and he nodded "Why didn't you just tell us? I mean I understand why but.. you know what i mean ma" Ruby said "I don't know, just didn't wanna let yall down" i said.

"i understand" he said and I sighed, "Where's Scott?" I asked "Uhh, I don't know I was low-key hoping you got up with him recently" he said "You haven't?" I asked

"nah, I been working" he told me and I nodded,

"let's go make sure he's not laid the fuck out.." I said grabbing my keys and me and Ruby walked out to my car.

I got in the driver's seat and we took off to Scrims house,luckily he only lived 10 minutes away.

We pulled in the driveway, I got out the car going to the door and knocking. After awhile Scrim opened the door "We know you a functioning addict and all but where you been?" I asked Scrim.

"I could say the same thing about you" Scrim said "I been making music and getting high, where you been" I said and he shrugged "The same thing" he told me

"You alright?" I asked and he nodded. "Scott" I said softly..."Angel, I'm fine i promise" he said, soon Ruby walked up behind me. Scott made a face, "Whats wrong with y'all? Did y'all get to arguing or sum?"I asked

"Kind of but I've apologized" Ruby said, "Bull shit.. i don't know why you apologized its the truth"Scrim said.

"Okay, both of y'all fix it. Now before this stupid ass interview in like two weeks" I said before turning and walking back to my car.

I watched Scrim and Ruby talk before hugging and Ruby walking inside behind Scrim after waving to me.

I laid my head on the steering wheel tapping it before pulling out of his driveway and driving home.

The boys had a interview with no jumper, but it was in Florida so we were gonna head down there next week.

I drove back to my house, parking my car and going inside to my studio. I looked at the tracks on the album, uploading it straight to SoundCloud before getting up and going to my bedroom and falling asleep.

I was exhausted, I had barely eaten or slept in the whole month. It was terrible habit I know, but the main thing I've done this month might as well have been pills..

I slept for hours and hours until my phone started ringing and I reached for it checking the Caller ID 'Ruby🍒' i answered the phone.

"Dude, check your SoundCloud that shit is booming.." he told me and I groaned, "Fine" I said getting up out of my bed and going to my laptop.

I opened the screen and saw the views on my diffrent songs and the new listeners.

"Okay.. I wasn't expecting that, but fuck that's cool as fuck" I said chuckling, "Don't blow up before us now little girl" I heard Scrim say from the background.

"I won't" I said and Ruby chuckled "Alright, we gotta go. We love you" Ruby said and I felt my stomach get all fluttery.

Wait, the fuck.

"Love you too" I said hanging up. I didn't think too much on it, I mean Ruby's basically my brother. I've met his whole family, And Scrims. So, why do I feel like this all of a sudden?

I put my phone on the charger, before it started ringing again. "Hello?" I said softly "Oh shitt, heyy shorty" Pouya, it was Pouya. "hey kid" I said "Soo, my buddy the interviewer the boys are supposed to see?" Pouya said "What about him?" I asked "He wants to see you as well" Pouya told me

"Oh shit, Really?" I asked "Yeah, but he said it'll have to be next week not two weeks" Pouya told me "Oh alright, I'll tell the boys" I said and I could hear him smile "Okay thanks" Pouya said "Alright" i said hanging up the phone

I texted Ruby🍒

'Ay, y'all's interview is next week.. and imma tag along he wanna talk w me aswell'

Ruby🍒'Alright ma'

'love you'

Ruby🍒'love you mo'

(Guys Ik they met Pouya at the no jumper interview but Idc, my book)