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-LLG🕊️🩷🖤

When the tour was finally over, and everyone was back home in they towns.

We got the text a few months later Peep. Was. Gone.

I remember exactly what happened, Me and Ruby were laying in bed and my phone kept going off but I ignored it.

Until I finally woke up and answered the phone it was Pouya

"Have you seen the news?" He asked, "No I just woke up, why what happened..?" I asked, "Angel.. Gus is gone" Pouya told me and I froze.

Ruby was laying in bed, "Angel?" Pouya said softly. I was frozen, Peep was my best friend and almost like a little brother to me. He was a little brother to me.

"Angel..?" Ruby said softly, I dropped my phone sobbing. Ruby got out of bed and walked over to me, he held me close to his chest as I sobbed.

"Baby.. Baby.. what happened?" He asked me, I shook my head barely able to be my words out. I was so struck, it was so fucking unexpected..

Ruby held onto me as I sobbed for what felt like forever, once I calmed down he held onto me.

"Angel.. baby.. what happened..?" He asked me softly, "Gus.. he.." I said softly, I didn't even wanna say it.. Ruby didn't say anything but he held me close.

After awhile, he helped me up off the floor and sat down with me. I sat in that bed all day, I didn't eat I didn't drink. I was just frozen, Soon Scrim walked in my room.

I guess Ruby had let him in, Scrim sat down with me "I'll be back" Ruby said and Scrim nodded.

He didn't speak, he didn't say anything to me.. "How..?" I asked softly, "We don't know yet Princess" Scrim said and I nodded feeling the tears run down my cheeks.

"I can't believe it.." I said softly, Scrim nodded holding onto me as I started crying again.

I think I spent that whole day crying.

But by night time, the house was quiet and I was all alone.

Alone.

I sat on my bed for about 15 minutes before getting up and grabbing the old shoe box out of my closet. I looked through the box for my knife.

I stared at it for God knows how long, before setting it down on the bed grabbing my phone and calling Ruby.

"What's up Angel?" He said softly, I was silent.

"Angel" Ruby repeated himself, "Can you.. come over please" I said softly trying my best not to cry, "Of course.. everything good?" He asked and I started sobbing.

"I just need you right now.." I said softly, "I'm on my way baby" he said softly, I hung up the phone sitting down on the floor next to the window, it was cracked softly so it was letting the cool air in..

I sat against that wall, just staring and staring until I heard the front door open and Ruby call my name. It's like I wasn't there, like I didn't exist anymore because a part of me was missing.

Ruby walked in the room, his eyes went to the blade on the bed and to me. I was completely dissociated..

"Baby" Ruby said softly and I looked up at him, "Did you?" He asked and I shook my head no.

He sat down next to me, and I laid my head on him "I love you, please don't go anywhere" I said softly, "I don't plan on it baby" Ruby said kissing my forehead

"I love you too" he added, we sat there in silence until I fell asleep and he picked me up laying me in bed and grabbing the knife putting it up somewhere.

He laid down with me, his hand going around my waist. Soon, we were both asleep and my thoughts finally stopped.

The next morning, Ruby didn't wake me up, he just let me sleep on him until I woke up on my own.

I woke up, looking up at him and he had a blunt in his mouth. I took the blunt from him inhaling and exhaling before handing it back to him and turning over on my side just to fall back asleep..

I basically slept that whole week, I didn't wanna talk to anybody or anything.

When I finally woke back up, as in snapped back to reality. Pouya and Eric were here, at my house because well so was Scrim and Ruby.

"Where is she..?" I could hear Kevin ask from outside, "In bed" Ruby told him and Kevin slid past him into the house and to my room.

I felt him sit down on the bed, we didn't talk we just sat there together and cried and talked about Gus.

(A/n Hey guysss I know this is so short but I wanted to get something out. I just wanna say Long live peep, we all miss you everyday 🩷🖤)