DIVINE

chapter 26

Maria's pov:
I couldn't believe what was happening to me. The only person that I trusted, loved, cared of. Lied to me, killed. For me. People died because of me.

It's been three days since I lastly saw him. He was too smart, he had people everywhere, he could find me any time. But I knew him too well. I left my car in a parking place, making it seem like I am around there, but the truth is that am far away from that place, in a hotel. I didn't pay with my card and I avoided cameras so I won't be seen. He is dangerous and powerful.

What am I gonna do? I can't hide like that, I have a life. Would he hurt me? Deep down I knew he wouldn't. In his crazy mind he loved me. And it wasn't because he was sick, he wasn't that crazy, he could feel emotions, I know it. But he is dangerous and the poor innocent people didn't deserve to die. I didn't know how to feel. I missed his touch, his voice, but at the same time I remembered what he did. Is he that obsessed? That possessive and crazy enough to take lives just because someone looked at me? What is this? I really thought he didn't mean it, but again, I forgot for a moment who my boyfriend was.

I ran away, I couldn't think straight. But these past few days all I did was to think. I felt bad too, when I am sad I usually don't eat much and I forgot my vitamins and everything again. I barely left my hotel room, scared that he will appear. I was so confused, so confused of how I felt. A part of me wanted him to leave me alone, never search for me again, but another part, craved him.

I felt lightheaded, but I was afraid to leave. What am I going to do?
Suddenly I heard a thunder. It started pouring outside, the drops of rain finding their way on to the ground.

I needed air.
I got down and went outside of the hotel, needing to breathe freely. It smelled like rain. I closed my eyes, letting the rain grab my tears that I unconsciously left to fall.

-I missed you, love.

His voice made me open my eyes immediately.
He just watched me, smiling at me with worry and regret in his eyes.
His hair was messy and dark circles under his eyes could be seen. He hadn't sleep well.

-How did you-
-Find you? I would turn the world upside down to find you, Maria. I would endure every bit of pain if that meant I would see you, safe, healthy, happy. However I couldn't live with myself knowing that you are out there, probably not eating. When you feel down you don't do that. You don't take your medicine and you were probably afraid to do so because I would find you. Please, I am begging you, just come home, eat, get your vitamins and a check at the doctor to make sure you are alright and I won't ever look for you again. I know that would fucking hurt so much, but I want you to be safe. I am begging you.

Rain was pouring on his shoulders, his eyes teary.
He got in this state because of me.

I felt more tears rolling on my cheeks alongside with the rain.
What was he doing to me? Is this how real love feels like? Loving someone, wanting to stay no matter what flaws they have?

I took a step back.
-Please... leave me alone.
I didn't mean what I said. I wanted him to stay with me.
-You don't mean that, love.

I ran away with tears in my eyes, going straight to my hotel room, but he was faster than me and held the door before I could even close it.
He got it.

-Please leave me alone. I hate already what happened to us, Wooyoung.

He got closer, I took a step back with each one he took closer.
I was now backing the wall.

Woo Young's pov:
I hated everything. We were drenched in water, she will catch a cold, she look tired, she looked sad. All because of me.
Why was she afraid of me... I could still feel regret in her voice and see through her eyes.
I meant everything I said, even though all I wanted was to have her in my arms again.
Thinking that she stayed here in this unknown hotel room, all by herself, not eating, hiding.
I am such a horrible person.

Of course I found her, she can't run away. I barely slept, I couldn't do it.

-You are fucking obsessed.
She said angrily, her back pressed on the wall. She had nowhere to go, she was at my mercy now.

-I am sorry. I can't help it, I love you too much. I would do anything for you.
I got her arm, holding it firmly but carefully, not to hurt her in any way.

She looked at me like she couldn't believe the state we were in. Neither did I.
I never thought we would end up in a situation like this.

-Why did you do it?
She said with tears in her eyes.
-I can't help it, this is how I am. I never felt love, I never had someone and you know it, but you... You changed me completely, you are mine and I can't ever share you or loose you. You make me feel. You make me alive and I know I have no excuses for what I did. I am a mafia leader. That is what I do.

-But you fucking know I would never look at someone, think about someone else. Wooyoung you can't do that shit. You can't kill people because they looked at me.

She looked down.
I lifted her chin, making her watch me carefully.

-Look at me. I promise you, I would never do that again. I was too blind to see, but all that matters is you. It's us. Yeah, in my fucked up mind I thought I did this so you could be safe. Someone as beautiful as you needs to be put like a trophy, not even I deserve you. Don't feel guilty, I didn't do this for you, you are not responsible for their death. I am. I did it.
I know I said I just want you to come home, but the truth is, I would prefer you to come back to me. I am begging you.

I did then a thing that I never thought I will do.
I got on my knees to beg. Not in a sexual way like I did before with her. However both purposes were only for her, for the first and last time. She was my everything.

-Come back, I want to be better for you. You are my reason to breathe, my love.

Then all of a sudden, she got serious and grabbed my collar.
-Promise me. Promise me we will fix things and you will never do this again. Promise.
-I promise.

She kissed me. She kissed me and I kissed her back like there was no tomorrow. How I missed her touch, her soft lips, her taste.
She pushed my chest, making me fall on my back.
She got on top of me and spoke.
I think she liked my possessive side.
-I missed you, obsessed man.
-How much?
I said teasingly.
-Let me show you.