"Y/N just listen to me please! I didn't mean it!" Ray yelled as I made my way around him and up the staircase
"But yet you have the audacity to do it FOR THE THIRD TIME RAY THE THIRD TIME!" I yelled over my shoulder. I finally reached the top and slammed our room door. Well it's about to be his now. I made sure to lock it. I slid down the door and began to pour my eyes out. This is the third time Ray has cheated on me. If he needs something why couldn't he just come to me? My chest began to ache and burn even more with each pound on the door
"Y/N open the door please!?" He yelled through the door. I didn't bother to answer. I felt unwanted, not loved, not good enough, and I even felt like I took up space... Why couldn't he just tell me he didn't want me? Well that's because i'm possibly a side hoe in his head too. But yet he wants to explain.. But then again this is too much hurt.. If I leave him, I don't know what i'll do. I'd probably just be engulfed one day by all the depression. I wish I could just get out of this easily. The pain then spread to my lungs. I figured out the best way possible. It will just be a clean break. I'll stop going through all this pain, and i'll stop feeling everything! I'll just be filled with relief.
"You don't want me.. so i'll leave you alone Ray.." I said loud enough for him to hear. He said some other things but I drowned him out. I walked over to my iHome and attached the iPod. I played Melodies and Desires by Lykke Li, and made sure it was kept on repeat. I played it loud enough to drown Ray out. I went over to the mini fridge and pulled out the vodka. I took it with me to the bathroom. I turned on the water and made sure it was cold. I wanted to be numb. I reached for the advil and sat in the tub. I didn't bother to take off my clothes. I felt the water prick at my skin. I thought about all the good times I had with Ray before I went.
I was numb and nostalgic enough to go. I tipped out ten pills in my hand. I put the first one in my mouth and took a swig of the vodka. I repeated this Until the pills vanished.
"Y/N just listen to me please, I did not mean to do this I was just being stupid!" He said. I don't know how but he somehow opened the room door. He was at the bathroom door now.
"Then your obviously crazy" I said non-chalantly while gulping down more vodka.
I could feel it in my head that I was going now. It felt light.. and then I couldn't see my arms, then my feet, and then it was just pitch black. The last thing I felt was warmness around my waist.
When Ray finally got in ,by ramming the door with his shoulder, her pulse just died out. There she layed limp in the tub. He rushed over to her. He climbed in and tried so hard to revive her. The realization finally hit him that he was the cause of her death. He constantly hurt her when all she ever did was give him everything. While he was too busy screwing another girl she sat at home waiting up for him thinking he was at the studio getting in extra moves. While he was taking another girl on a date, she was at home cooking for him, and while he was out smiling and laughing with another girl, she was sleeping and dreaming of having a child together.
He bawled for ten minutes and finally reached for his phone. He wasn't surprised that he could have destroyed his phone he was just focusing on what would happen if a finger even detached itself from her frail figure. He struggled to tell the woman on the other line what had happened. He only told them the address and to come immediately.
He dropped his phone in the water next to him.
He thought about the song that was playing and how it was Y/N's favorite song. He memorized the song after the millions of times she would play it
"Love is the harmony, desire is the key, love is the symphony, come sing some with me."
He said to her. The police finally arrived. They wouldn't let him ride in the paramedics. They wouldn't let him be with her one last time. He felt empty, and drained. He couldn't stay in the house anymore it would remind him too much of Y/N. He loved to remember her face but he would hate to know that he would never ever have a chance at seeing her again.
He stayed a few weeks at his friends house. He would never sleep, or eat. He no ability to do anything, because Y/N took all of it with him.
