When no one's watching

Chapter 30 - final chapter

Liam's pov:

I must've had a nightmare is what I though as I woke up drowned in tears and still shaking slightly.
I didn't remember what it was about but I needed a few minutes to calm down and catch my breath again.

My fingers were still slightly jittery as I turned on my bedside lamp and looked onto my phone.
3.27am.

I let myself fall back into my pillow and just stared at my ceiling.
I could feel that my eyes were swollen because I had probably cried the whole time and my hair was messed up completely.

I knew that I wouldn't be able to fall asleep again so I quickly stood up and changed into a different pair of sweatpants and put on a jumper.
After I had quietly gotten downstairs I carefully put on my shoes and took my keys.
Thank god no one woke up, this was the only time I could do something without them occupying every move I did.
Of course, they had their reasons blah blah blah but I just needed time to myself.

As I was waking through the night I could finally calm down and the warm but still fresh breeze of air made it even more calming.
At this time no cars were on the road, there was not a single soul other than me and it was deadly silent.

It felt like time had stopped and I started to wonder if I really was alive.
I opened my eyes which I had had closed all the time and found myself in the middle of a crossing.
There was a road sign which had the word HOSPITAL in big white letters on it.

For some reason I just started laughing at it.
My life seriously was a joke. It felt like a bad movie where that one person 'randomly' just comes by the hospital when their best friend is in there.
Just that this wasn't a bad movie but bloody real life. And I wished that this was a bad movie with the same cliche ending as every bad movie.
But this was reality and I couldn't just decide which ending I wanted. I wasn't the director of this horror movie and it made me feel so helpless.

Suddenly I flinched as a heard car horns and bright lights just in front of me. I was blinded by the lights and could only hear wheels screeching.

The next moment someone was shouting something at me from out of the car and I eventually got away from the street.
My heart was racing and while the driver shook his head and still yelled something at me while driving t, I just thought about what had just happened.

I now seriously started looking around because this bullshit couldn't be real life and had to be a weird, shitty comedy.
But I couldn't find any cameras and so I just continued walking.

I knew where my feet were leading me.
To him.
And as much as my brain yelled at me not to go, my heart was kind of missing him.

My feet carried me to the hospital without me even doing anything and I found myself in the reception hall.
To my surprise, there was no one sitting behind the counter but I could hear someone talking in the back of the office.

I took the chance and ran towards the right hallway as fast as possible.
I continued to run through the endless hospital hallways until I finally arrived at his room.

My breath hitched as I saw him laying there again. Just in the same position as the last time.
I felt like I couldn't do this and I just wanted to leave as I could hear heels walking towards me fast.
I knew I would have a serious problem if they'd see me here so I quickly scurried into Zayn's room.

I waited until the person's foot steps became quieter again and walked towards his bed.

If I wouldn't know better I would think he was just sleeping there. And he was but he was just sleeping for 2 months and 4 days now.

I quietly sat down next to him and for a very long time I just stayed silent and listened to the heart monitor while thinking about what I should tell him.

I finally found the right words or the words I thought I should use.
I took his hand in mine and again felt like a psycho as I was talking to someone who hadn't been conscious for months.

"Z, it's me again. I know it's pathetic to show up at 4am in the morning but I couldn't sleep anymore. I was here yesterday and already told you everything but I want to tell you again. Please wake up just for your friends and family. And maybe for me, I just want to hear your voice once again and then I'll leave forever, I promise. You'll never have to see me again. Keep in mind that I have always loved you and I always will. No matter if we fought, you were the reason I was still alive and was actually enjoying it. Thanks for making living worth it. I love you, yeah?"

Without noticing I had started crying again and slowly wiped my tears with my jumper.
Just as I looked back to Zayn my jaw dropped.
He had a tear there, running down his cheek.
Was I dreaming? Was this even possible? Was I just going crazy now?

3rd person's pov:

What happened in the next few seconds made Liam feel like he was in his cliche movie again.

Zayn opened his eyes.
The heart monitor was beeping loudly and the numbers on it were increasing.

Zayn's eyes were widened and he was looking around in the room extremely scared and confused.

He was shaking but as he looked to Liam his body seemed to relax a little.
He was still confused and scared. Everything felt surreal and it felt like he could finally escape his body again which he had been trapped in for the past two months.

Liam still seemed speechless and he just stared at Zayn like he was seeing a ghost.
Zayn was staring back just as scared with tears in his eyes.

"Liam, don't say that."
Zayn was only whispering, his voice was raspy and deep and he still sounded disturbed and overstrained with the whole situation.

Liam just started to shake his head and flung his arms around Zayn's neck, still being careful not to hurt the fragile boy.

"Oh god I've missed you so much."
Liam was sobbing uncontrollably as he held Zayn in his arms.
Zayn was still comprehending so he didn't answer directly.

After many minutes had passed Zayn finally spoke up again.

"Don't say that."
Liam loomed at him confused but also completely happy about that he could hear his voice again.

"What, Zaynie ?"

"That you will leave forever. I need you. And I love you too."

Zayn fell into Liam's arms again and Liam melted into his touch, finally smelling Zayn's scent again that he had been missing so much.

Of course it wasn't perfect.
But for them it was.
Just for one moment time had stopped and everything was just fine.
The world turned alright and both of them were just happy to finally have each other in their arms again.

It wasn't perfect, not at all, there was so, so much to fix in these two boys.
But for this one moment the world had seemed to turn alright.

A/N:
this was it. so sorry if this was cringe, don't hate me. I'm an adult now and while reading some key words I realized I forgot EVERYTHING i wrote down here.
Hope you enjoyed either way <333
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