Life Unknown

Chapter 9

The third hour came and the fourth hour came.  No one had came to tell me anything about my unnamed twin the baby that was still referred to as Baby B. I thought that I should look at her before I named her because I wanted her name to match her look. Finally I got tired of waiting for someone to tell me something and I called the nurses desk.

"Hi this is Harper Lee, are the nurses done running test on my second twin?  I have seen my first one but the second had to go to the NICU."

"Ahh yes, Mrs. Lee, I don't think that they are, but I can let you go to the NICU and see her if you would like. You couldn't walk, but I will send you a wheelchair strait up."

"Thank you, I would really like that."

I turned to Damian and told him what she had said.

"Well, it is the least they can do they haven't even let us see her since I cut her cord."

"Yeah and I am starting to not like the nurse very much, On the phone just now she sounded annoyed that I even called her."

"Well, maybe she is just under some stress right now babe. I am sure she didn't mean to. At least we are about to see our missing piece."

As soon as he said that a nurse came in with a wheelchair and asked if we were ready. Of course we said yes, then she looked at Emily.

"I am sorry dears, but she can not go down there with us we will have to drop her off in the nursery before we leave to see your other."

I was shocked all she was supposed to have was a blockage and under weight why would that effect Emily.

"Don't worry dear its just a precaution, there are other babies there besides your's ya know."  That made me feel a little better, but it sucked my family couldn't be together.

We arrived at the normal nursery and dropped off Emily then went down the hall to see our little baby. When we walked in there were little baby incubators everywhere. I was told to be prepared for the machines that would be hooked up to her, but when we reached her incubator there was so many around here that only one of us could stand at the incubator. I cried when I saw her. She looked so tiny in her incubator and when I asked the nurse what she weighed she said something that scared the hell out of me.

"One pound seven ounces and sixteen inches long."

How could she be so tiny her sister was triple her weight. I turned to Damian and cried in his shoulder.

The nurse looked over and saw me and then, it was her that was holding me instead of Damian. I didn't care though as long as someone would hold me.

"Listen hear dear, that baby needs you to be super strong for her, and you can't be weak right now. She is trying all she can, but you need to be there for her more than ever. Now dry up those tears, be strong, take your husband's hand and face this together."

Her words gave me strength I didn't know I had.

Damian took my hand as I reached in with the other and touched my baby for the first time. And just like the first time with Emily a name came to my mind.

"Hope Marie, how do you like that Damian."

"I think that its perfect. She is our hope, and I know she will make it through it.

"I know that she will she is going to be a fighter."

We stood there looking at her for an hour. Then the nurse said that it was time for her feeding and the other twins too. Hope couldn't breastfeed because she had a feeding tube, but I was attempting to breastfeed Emily. The hospital also gave me a pump and told me it would be best if I could pump some breast milk for hope.

 We picked Emily back up from the nursery and a nurse came behind us to teach me how to do this. I was so nervous that my body wouldn't work right for her and she wouldn't get enough milk, but the nurse assured me that it would be okay and she would probably be eating more because formula fills up the tummy better and breast feeding takes longer.

After she left and I successfully feed Emily we had a surprise waiting when we went to lay down. I gave Damian the honors of changing the first stinky diaper. It was completely gross and we had a ball trying to figure it out, finally she was all clean and was sleeping it felt good to laugh after being so sad.

I was seriously happy and couldn't wait to have Hope healthy enough to come home with us. Life was going good and even though hope was sick I knew I couldn't doubt that she would make it. Life was great and Damian was was here. That's the last thought that had before I drifted to sleep.