Life Unknown

Chapter 12

We celebrated our engagement in the best way we knew how. He had taken Hope to the baby room to put her in the crib and I had went to our bedroom. He quickly was in there with me kissing me softly, but with a little seduction in every movement. He knew exactly how to push my buttons, and he knew I liked it too much. Slowly he moved to the base of my neck and kissed me softly. He sent shivers down my spine and there was no turning back now. The weeks had been long since the girls were born. He slowly undressed me. Making sure to kiss every part of my body. When he had me completely naked he stood over me and told me how beautiful I was, and gently entered me knowing it was like the first time all over again. We made love till we were both washed down in sweat, and exhausted. It was amazing.

It took a lot of energy that I really did not have, but it was worth it. After we had cuddled for a little while I started to drift off into sleep when the monitors tore me away from dreamland.

Hope was up at 3:27AM wow! Emily was already sleeping through the night, I guess Hope was gonna take a few nights to get on her schedule. I still could not believe that this was my life. It was amazing at what I had went through today. Damian went down to fix her bottle while I picked her up out of her crib and took her to the rocking chair. I love this chair, I rocked Emily in it when she woke up now I am rocking Hope. At this moment everything felt so surreal. I was engaged, a mother of two beautiful girls, and actually happy.  Could I have really thought that life was so horrible when I was pregnant. I could not believe that I did not want my twins. They were my life now and I do not think I could live without them ever again. I was crying when Damian walked in the door. He handed me the bottle and wiped my tears.

" Baby why are your crying? This is a happy time so be happy." He said with the sweetest smile I have ever seen.

" Damian you and the twins have made me the happiest woman in the world. I was just thinking about how it was before you came back to me." I wondered if I should tell him about how I felt about our twins before he was there for me.

" Harper tell me whats wrong please." At that moment I knew I needed to be honest with him, he was going to be my husband.

" Before you came down here with me and started being here for us I did not even want them. I just wanted to be a teenager without any responsibilities and sometimes I even hoped that I would die. Not the baby, I never wished that they would die, but I wanted to." At this point I had tears streaming down my face, but I was not sobbing. I was calm as I told him this. It felt so good to let it out and actually tell someone how I felt for five months before I truly loved my children.

" Babe I wish you would have called me sooner. I wanted to be there with you but there was no way that I could find you. You were all the way down here. I could have looked for weeks without finding you. I hope that you never feel that way again, and I am going to do everything in my power to make sure that you do not."

I was still crying but they had turned to happy tears, I was happy with the life that I was now living, and I never wanted to leave it.

" Babe, you never have to worry about me feeling that way again. You and the girls are my life now and I do not ever want that to change. Thank you for coming down here with me, it is kind of important that I be near my mom and stuff now, plus I like it down here, everyone is so friendly."

" Yeah it is really nice down here. And I was only doing the responsible thing, not to mention I am completely in love with you and my girls."

We talked for a long time and I could not even remember when Hope feel asleep, but after a while there she was laying in my arms fast asleep. I put her back in her crib and we went back to bed.

The next morning we awoke to both girls crying, and semi laughing. It was like they knew that they were together again. I picked up Hope, and Damian picked up Emily. We took them down to the kitchen after changing them and feeding them, so that we could start our own breakfast. It took a whole hour to get them ready. I could not believe it took that long with two of us. What was I going to do when Damian went back to school. I guess it would take me twice as long. Or either I would get a good schedule down so that I could get faster at it.