HE Who Saw the Deep

Chapter 28

I went to a different coffee shop just to satisfy my needs. Hindi ko na naisip ang sadyang bumili ng kape dahil sa nangyari.

I sat down outside the shop and watched the passersby as I sip my coffee and my mind was flying over somewhere.

Tanaw ko mula rito ang matatayod na bundok ng Switzerland, aakalain mong green screen. The greeneries, falls, and even the sky adds up to the beauty of the country, syempre kasi ito nga ang dahilan kung bakit pangarap ito ng marami.

He's married. I haven't thought about it through the years. Mas pinaniwalaan ko pa ang sinabi ni Johann. And he has a kid.

I gulped the lump in my throat. What am I even thinking? Of course, nakapag moved on na iyong tao, that was almost a decade ago!

Nawala kasi siya bigla. Pati balita sa kanya wala akong narinig. Kaya hindi ko na rin naisip na baka nag-asawa na nga siya.

Ako lang pala itong matagal makalimot. Ako ang nagtulak papalayo pero ako itong balik parin nang balik sa kahapon.

I tightly closed my eyes and leaned on the backrest. Please, he's married already. Stop thinking about him, it feels so illegal - it feels like I'm a desperate mistress from thinking like that. Ano ngayon kung may asawa na siya? That's his life.

The opportunity to achieve success in my career and become so established feels surreal, but not ending up with him was the ultimate cost.

Hindi ako matigil kakaisip ng what if's. What if I didn't push him away? What if I listened to him instead of bursting out?

I snapped back to reality when a man sat in front of me. Bumungad sa akin ang seryosong si Brayan. He was wearing a leather brown jacket and a white inner shirt partnered with a neutral color down. Mabilis na kumunot ang noo ko at agad na dinampot ang teaspoon para ibatok sa kanya.

Napaman ko na't lahat-lahat, ngayon ko pa siya nakita! Damn him, ang galing magtago! Magpinsan nga sila!

But before I could even do that, he held my wrist to stop me.

"I'm here to explain, I'm sorry." Umarko ang kilay ko sa nauna niyang sinabi.

"No need," I spat, all done with it. "Alam ko na." Sumandal ulit ako sa inuupuan.

He arched a brow.

"Nakapag-usap na kayo? " Mahinahon niyang tanong.

Mabilis na kumunot ang noo ko. "Why would I?" Sarkastiko kong sagot na ikinatigil niya.

"Anong nalaman mo?" He asked carefully, naninimbang ang titig sa akin.

"Basta," Nag-iwas ako ng tingin. "Umalis ka na, nanggigigil ako sa'yo." Bugaw ko sa kanya.

He chuckled in disbelief and shook his head. "I'm here to explain my side. Hindi ako narito para sa side niya, he has the right to explain it all to you. But I have part of your separation kaya hihintayin kong mauna siyang magpaliwanag sayo bago kita kausapin ulit." He smiled. Wala akong naintindihan sa sinabi niya kaya hindi ko na inisip iyon.

"I hope you forgive me. . . in advance." The Brayan I knew was playful and sarcastic damned man. Ngayon, pagkatapos ng ilang taon ring hindi nagkita, Kapansin-pansin ang mga pagbabago niya. He became composed and serious about almost everything. Ngayon mas nadepina ang pagiging magkapareha nila ng mukha ng pinsan. I couldn't look at him because I would remember Eron. They looked almost the same.

"I'll take my leave, then. " Ngiti niya. "Enjoy the country." He stood and left with his hands on his pocket.

When my gaze flew to the sit he left. I saw a business card on his table. Inabot ko iyon at nakita ang kompanya niya. I didn't know he studied law? His number was indicated. Hindi ko napansin ang note sa likod kaya nang ilagay ko iyon sa bag ay nahulog iyon. My forehead creased. Pinulot ko iyon at binasa.