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state of mind :)

Hello, Maydays! How are we doing todayyyy? :D

I wanted to write this down somewhere, but my diaries are buried in the mess in my room and I don't have the energy to fetch them, so I decided to talk about this with you guys.

So I published Astray as an Ebook on Kindle about 10-11 days ago, and my life has been a rollercoaster since then. And before you ask: no, it isn't like a successful career prospective confetti shower rollercoaster. I'm stressed. The book is not doing well right now.

First of all, I understand that I am not even a newbie in the world of publishing — I'm wayyyy beneath that, and that is why it is taking so long for the copies to be sold and reviews to be received. Like, obviously, it was like this when I first joined Wattpad, too, in 2017. It took my first book a year to gain 1k reads, and I was working hard to let it gain the reach.

This time, it's mostly the same; I'm starting anew, and I need to have the patience to let it blossom, to let myself grow and develop into the person I aspire to become. The only difference is that I do have the baggage of being an adult, while in 2017, I was just a teenager who could merely worry about exams every two months.

I have been making reels for the book, timing posts on social media platforms, sending everyone the reminders to purchase/review the ebook on Amazon, calling up professors to spread the word, dialing numbers of some specialists I have in my contacts to help me in promoting the book, writing on Wattpad, working on my other books that I plan to release officially on Kindle soon, finding jobs for myself, going from publication house to publication house to submit the manuscript of Missing Part, worrying about admissions-

It just never ends. It's so hard to grow up and work.

I haven't slept for over 3 hours for a week by now, and even when I sleep, i dream about getting Missing Part published. It's like: in the day, I'm writing the original novels, and past 11 PM, I'm writing my Wattpad books.

I know, you'll tell me to take it easy and sleep and not worry about the Wattpad books i have ongoing, but every book I write is a commitment. I made a commitment to you all by posting a book, and I need to fulfill that. Plus, I'm your home, right? I need to make you happy, I need to make you feel comfortable too. A home has to withstand the attacks of time to protect its people. I'm standing by you until the end, don't worry. I'll protect you from your tough reality :)

Ahh, it feels better to vent out! I'm already better, so thank you for reading this formless rant, my loves!

A gentle reminder for you: you're doing so well, you're working hard and up till your capacity, and you're steadily morphing into the best version of you. Your prime will arrive soon, as will mine! This isn't just hope; this is the inevitable truth. So keep hustling, and remember to take time out for yourself, too! I am proud of you!!

I love you!! <3