TSUKASA ANGST | They All Hate Me Now....

5...

I just wanna drop this series already bro, I don't want to write this anymore 😭 Also sorry u have to wait for months for another part, I have no motivation. And also school has been starting for me already.

This is just me rereading this part after I wrote this and I've noticed this is the complete OPPOSITE of the description (kinda) and title. Oh well, I'll probably change it once this ends.

Also I have 1 main question for u guys. Since one of my friends already made one choice for later chapters, I want y'all to pick 1 or 2. Choose wisely , Tsukasa's life is in YOUR hands.

Tbh I should've just written the plan before making a story bc holy fuck what am I doing and how do u write angst??? 💀

Just to let you know it's basically "H–...How could you sigma alphas...?! I–I–I–I–I... h–h–h–hate you bakas! 🥺 *I cry in the most saddest and painfully way ever and ran away from the sigmas.*" 💔🙏

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Tsukasa's POV:

"..." Did I hear that correctly? No, there's no way Saki had passed away already! I think the doctors got the results wrong or mixed up...! "Co...Could you repeat what you said sir?"

"I'm afraid that your sister Saki Tenma had passed away from her illness." The doctor repeated.

My heart sank and shattered into millions of pieces. Too much feelings are happening all at once.

No...please Saki...besides Toya–you were the only family member I truly cared about! I can't lose you. You were my only hope! You're the reason I wanted to become a star, you're the reason I had hope in bringing our family happy, you're the reason I had hope on making you happy. You gave me the most motivation and confidence when I was performing!

But what's the point of that now? If you're not here anymore, then I don't have any need to become a star. That dream is now just useless, staying at the back of my mind.

But maybe mom and dad are still hope? They smiled when we first visited a show. I can still do this "star" thingy still right...? I can still be a star even when Saki's not alive anymore, right...?

Ugh, no! This coping mechanism isn't working out!

I felt this terrible pain in my chest and I fell to the ground on my knees. I started crying destructively, no matter how much I tried to stop myself, tears spilled out more and more...

C'mon Tsukasa, get your act together! (NOT GYAT) A star can't be feeling this emotion right now! Oh wait...

I can't be a star anymore if there's no more hope for me to be one.

After I calmed down with my crying a bit, I asked if I could see Saki even if she's dead but they said no. They also just digged her up in a graveyard but that's complete bullshit that the staff didn't let us decide if we wanted a funeral! We could even take her ashes...

After a while, I finally left the hospital still crying. I just want to go back home, lock myself up in my room, and remain there until I die.

Is this what the others wanted to tell me next week...?! I can't believe them! They were supposed to be my friends who tell each other immediately when emergencies come up! Although I will admit I don't do that with my past feelings, but waiting that long to say someone's death?! No wonder why the hospital put her in a graveyard, I...or we (parents)...were too late to make that decision!

I still continued to sob while overthinking what just happened...

Rui's POV:

After practice was over, me, Nene, and Emu agreed to go to the park to talk about the plan for our next show and how were going to explain the Saki news to Tsukasa-kun...