TSUKASA ANGST | They All Hate Me Now....

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Tsukasa's POV:

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Once I made it home, I took off my shoes and went to my room. I'm too tired and stressed to cook myself dinner. Even though Saki hadn't been home this past week because of her illness, today's atmosphere feels so depressing.

I went upstairs and took a shower like I always do. I usually sing while I clean myself, it helps me practice (and sometimes break) my vocals to prepare for future shows. But I didn't feel like it today, I'm too tired.

After a bit, I grabbed a towel and dried myself off.

Jeez, I look like a mess.

I went outside of the bathroom and into my room which somehow had a missing wall. What were mom and dad thinking? I flopped onto my bed, the front of my body staring at the ceiling.

Great... I failed not only my family but also the rest of the Wonderland x Showtime again. I'm such a disappointment...

At this point, screw practicing my lines. I just need a fucking break. Maybe I could go to sleep if I can try.

I looked at my phone for a few minutes to see if I had gotten any new notifications from anyone.

Of course I didn't. I'm a failure.

I just sighed and turned off my phone, placing it down on my nightstand.

As I tried to make my best attempt to just doze off and sleep until morning, I swear I could've felt a warm tear on my face before driving off to sleep.

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It was the next morning–or should I say afternoon... I woke up a bit too late, whoops. I looked at my phone and it said "August 14, 2024. 12:08 P.M." Although my mind was begging for me to go back to sleep, I had to force myself to get out of bed and get ready. I have another day ahead of me.

If I did had a day for me.

It's the same as usual, I brush my teeth, comb my hair, apply some skincare, and put on uniform if it was a school day. If not, I'll just put on my casual outfit.

I don't care what people think about how I wear this casual outfit every time. I went over my budget from just a single outfit when trying to refresh myself for the new school year. That 28,500 yen (Abt $175 USD) spent for just that definitely had made a big impact on my savings...

Ugh... Just thinking about that makes me feel so guilty. I love my outfit from my favorite brand but I don't need to be reminded of how much it costed! Nevermind that.

Still, I didn't feel like eating but it's okay. I'm sure I'll remember to each lunch later, right? I'll just go ahead and take a glass of water to drink for now.

I grabbed a glass and went to my water dispenser to fill up the cup of water. After I waited until it was close to full, I stopped it and chugged the entire cup.

Almost choked but it also felt good.

I opened up the dishwasher and placed the cup inside. I usually don't put dishes or whatever in here because washing them by hand is more time efficient but I don't feel like it today. I just want to take a stroll in the park today!

I already know that washing a singular glass doesn't take as much energy as taking a walk but fuck that. Washing my own dishes feels like some chore.

I decided to grab my keys from the table and started opening the front door.

"I'm going to take a walk outside Saki!" I waited for a few minutes for my sister's response. I was wondering why she didn't reply back, I first thought she was just sleeping but she wouldn't sleep this late... Then it struck me.

I forgot... She was forever gone.

Oh wow... What a wonderhoy-ful way to start my walk, forgetting my best sister in the world passed.

It's okay Tsukasa... Just calm down and take your walk, it's kind of the reason why you wanted to anyway–to let go of these feelings. It won't be easy but just try your best...

I took one last deep breath and finally locked the front door behind me. I started making my way to the park to relax.

The surroundings of where I was walking had helped me calm down a bit. Just the sound of nature, cars driving... It just eases me for some reason. I couldn't help but escape a little smile.

In a matter of time, I finally reached a small park. It was kind of quieter than usual but I didn't mind much. I spotted a bench and sat down on it for a little break.

I was mindlessly staring off at the tree leaves when I suddenly heard a small meow somewhere near me. It was a cat!

The cat jumped on the bench and came closer to me. I was caught off-guard when it did that. The little creature meowed again as if it wanted to get petted, and so I did. I did my best to rub its fur gently and not insanely.

Honestly, the cat kind of reminded me of Rui. How though? Maybe because he always had his cat face or ":3" face on whenever he smiles. It sometimes made me happy when I saw him smile like that...

Wait, platonically Tsukasa! Platonically! Maybe...

No, it's platonic!

As I was fighting in my head if I find Rui's cat face to make me feel happy platonically or something, the cat randomly got off my lap and started running away.

"Eh?! Wait! Come back!! OUAGHHHHHH!!!!" I shouted as I tried chasing the cat. It's not like I have nothing else to do anyway right now, this could help me take more steps.

My legs started to feel tired from all this running, this kitty is fast! I didn't give up though. I! Tsukasa Tenma! Must successfully catch this cat once and for all!

"OUAGHHHHHH!!!!" I repeated again, I started catching up with the cat. I was too happy that I was getting closer to pick that I didn't realize my mistake.

As I was still chasing the cat on the road, I heard some people around me shouting something. Why were they just randomly screaming? Everything looked fine to me though. I saw the sun being blocked from some part of the road, curious, I turned to the direction where the sun was getting blocked

But then suddenly...

BAAM!–

I then immediately woke up and gasped, my heart racing so loudly that I could hear it so clearly.

I took a minute to process what just happened. What was going on...?

I looked up at the clock on my phone. "August 13, 2024. 3:33 A.M"

Of course a bad dream is going to happen in cursing hours...

But, just what was that nightmare...?

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Hii! Sorry if this one's really short! I had no idea what to do for this chapter, I honestly expected this to be a little bit longer but oh well. T_T

But sometimes, dreams could be very short yk? Idk bro. 😓

While writing this, I also had an idea for ch 7 but it went away from my head so I need a different plan asap before you guys jump me if I take more longer for parts bc of my lazy ass. 😍

Off-topic but I have 83k crystals saved for Minori and Tsukasa's 3rd anniversary card and just to let u know, I've never saved THIS MUCH EVER in my 10 months of playing 🔥 So I better get them. (Pls SEGA I need to gamble so bad)

Anyways, srry abt that. See you guys in a couple of months again 😼