Tear In My Heart

Chapter Six

*Sarah's POV*

I wake with a banging headache and the beeping sound of my alarm clock. I groan, sit up and push my knotted hair from my face.

Beep beep

I pick up my phone to see a text from Spencer

Hey, I was wondering if you want me to pick up a coffee for you and drop it off at yours? You're on my way

The text makes my heart flutter and begin to reply.

Thank you, that's so sweet. I feel like utter shit, hah x

You're not the only one, haha. See you soon x

I quickly hurry to the shower so I look semi-decent for your guest. I wash myself down and brush through my hair.

I hear a knock at the door just as I step out of the shower. Fuck.

"It's Spencer" I hear from the other side of the door. "It's open. I'm just getting ready" you reply. "Your place is awesome, Sarah" Spencer says in amazement. I giggle from my bedroom as I throw some clothes on and run to the living room where I find Spencer sitting on the sofa waiting patiently.

"Sorry. I look a mess. I've just gotten out of the shower." "No you don't. Have you seen me?" He says whilst passing my coffee to me as I jump over the back of the sofa landing next to him. "Wow. Ninja skills or what!" he laughs out. "I'm surprised I didn't launch you up to hit the ceiling. Hahaha" we both laugh hysterically.

"So how are you Spence? You seemed kind of weird the other night"
"Yep, completely fine" I slap his arm playfully. "Come on. I'm a profiler now, you can't fool me" I laugh, trying to make him more comfortable about speaking. "I felt sad because you felt sad mainly" "What do you mean I felt sad?" "I could see it in your eyes. About Derek?" "I guess so. I'm a bit homesick too but times like these remind me I'm not alone." I pick some whipped cream from my frappucino and dab it on his nose. "I'll get you back for that." He says as I jump over the back of my sofa to run away. He does the same but stumbles over and falls to the floor, immediately grabbing his leg. "Oh my gosh, Spencer, are you okay?" He winces and has a painful expression on his face.

His expression quickly turns to a grin and he lets go of his leg. "Yeah, I'm fine. I said I'd get you back" "You cock. You massive cock." I laugh and slap his arms.

After a while of us sitting on the floor, I sit back against the floor and lay flat looking up at the ceiling. "Spence?" "Yep?" "Close the curtains and turn the light off?" "What for?" He asks nervously "I want to show you something pretty cool" He nods, shaking a bit. He shuts the curtains, turns the switch off and lays down on the wooden floor next to me looking up at the ceiling. "It's beautiful!" "I know." We are staring at the ceiling. It's full of twinkling glow in the dark stars and planet stickers. Not the rubbish ones you get as a kid, the pretty ones. We look up for a little while longer before he turns on his side.

"How are you finding the new job then?" He asks. I turn on my side too "Amazing. I'm loving every single moment. There's just a lot to do is all." "I've been there a few years now so I'm finding it pretty manageable. I'm sure you'll be the same soon enough" "Thank you" I reply.

After a while of silence (comfortable silence, but silence nonetheless) I feel the need to tell him. To tell him I like him. Before I can change my mind I blurt out my feelings "Spence, I like you... a lot" I see his face turn in confusion. "I mean I'm attracted to you Spence" "B-but how about Morgan?" He asks stumbling on his words "That's not going to work out. Everyone can see it. We're not technically together, and I don't think I want to be either," I answer then I ask nervously "Do you like me Spence?" "Of course I do Sarah. You're wonderful but Morgan would be so upset." He says, making me breathe out sadly.

I go to open the curtains again and make myself some cereal. "Do you want anything?" I ask Spencer. "No thanks, I'm good."

I turn around and he pulls me into a hug and hugs me tightly. I pull back after a while, still with my arms loosely placed around his neck. "What was that for?" "I don't know" he says, slurring his words slightly looking deep into my eyes. I look lovingly back into his beautiful eyes, soaking in the moment. "I like you Spence" I say again in an almost pleading voice. I pull him closer and closer to me until our foreheads touch and I can smell the sweet smell of coffee from him. I place my right hand on his cheek and keep my left around his neck and lean in to kiss him. He doesn't seem to object and kisses me back. It feels absolutely amazing. Like nothing I've ever felt in my life. He sends chills down my spine as he kisses me harder and his hands rake over my back. I pull away staring at him intensely. "I like you too" he says sweetly.

TO BE CONTINUED...