Tear In My Heart

Chapter Seven

*Sarah's POV*

"You need to speak to Morgan, Sarah" Spencer says quietly, still holding me in his arms. "I know, I've needed to for a while, I've just been putting it off. Do you want to stay here tonight? We've got the day off and it'd be nice to spend time with you." "As long as you talk to Morgan tomorrow." I nod and peck his lips and pull him back to the sofa.

"Do you want to watch something?" I ask. "Sure, I don't mind" I pick up the first DVD I see and slot it into the player. It happens to be the first season of Sherlock. "Have you seen these before?" "No I haven't actually. Surprising, considering it being based on Sir Arthur Conan Doyle's novels. I love those books but I never have the time to watch these. They're about an hour and a half each, aren't they?" "Yeah, it's like watching a very elaborate film with every episode. I think you'll like it" He has his arm around my waist and I snuggle my head into his shoulder as the first episode begins. I feel the warmth from him. He's breathing calmly and steadily.

The lock in the door clicks as it's being opened. I immediately grab my gun which is on the coffee table next to me. It's Derek. Derek Morgan. He steps in looking heartbroken and he begins to look teary. "I just came to collect some stuff. You weren't answering your phone. Now I see why" He shouts in hurt and anger. "It's not what it looks like" "Don't give me that shit Sarah. It was pretty plain what is going on. I love you Sarah and this is what you do to me." "Y-You love me? You never told me before." I begin to tear up also with my voice shaking. Spencer is still sitting on the sofa looking helpless and not knowing what to do. "Yes, I fucking love you! I love you so much. So much. I can't believe you've done this to me. I know we're on a break, but we're not split up. You can't just go and cheat. A break is for thinking things through, for wrapping your head around things." "I'm so sorry Derek. I didn't know you felt this way. We only kissed and it was only once. I promise." "But once is enough. You wanted to kiss him. My best friend. You wanted to kiss your boyfriend's best friend. Do you know what, fuck you both. I can't deal with this shit." He heads for the door but I catch him. "No, please. Can we just talk? Please?" "I can't right now. No. I'm leaving" And with that, he leaves, slamming the door behind him.

I drop to my knees with the overwhelming guilt and cry hysterically. Spencer rushes to my side and lifts my chin so I'm looking at him. "Listen to me. If he loves, he'll let you go if that's what you want." He says sweetly and I hug him tightly. "Everything's going to be okay eventually. I promise." He kisses the top of my head and wipes the tears from my face. "You must be tired. Do you still want me to stay here?" I nod. "I need someone here tonight. Everyone's going to hate me Spencer." "No they won't. I'm here for you anyway. Come on. Let's get you to bed. I'll crash on the sofa." "Please, don't. I need you here, please." "Of course. Whatever you need." He replies.

I get changed into a strappy spaghetti top and my knickers and slip into bed. Spencer grabs an oversized shirt of mine and puts it on. He slips into bed and pulls his side of the covers over himself. His lanky arms wrap my waist. "Everything will be okay." He kisses my head and with that, relaxes against me and falls asleep.

I stay awake almost all night worrying but eventually fall asleep at 4 in the morning by sheer tiredness.

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A/N: I hope you are enjoying the story. It would be great if you could comment and vote but don't feel the need to. Gube night everyone xx