As Much As I Love You (Harry Styles Fanfic)

Chapter 4

When I came down to the lobby I felt a cold shiver running down my spine. He was sitting in a small couch, reading a newspaper. He had blonde, long hair, muscular body and blue, cold eyes. He was wearing a white casual shirt and blue skinny jeans.

I was just standing there, not knowing what to do. My heart was pounding in my chest as I was looking nervously around the lobby. I realized it was empty at the moment. I felt the panic burning in my body and I was about to run up the stairs again as I heard a familiar voice saying:

"Hello there"

I frozed.

"He doesn't know what happened.. He has nothing on you.." A voice in my head said.

That's right. He doesn't know anything.. He can't be..

I saw him wrapping up the paper, and slowly turned his ice cold eyes towards mine. As I met his gaze I felt another shiver running down my spine.

"Long time no see." He said with a small smile.

"Carson" I said short.

His smile grew wider and he slowly got up from the couch. He walked towards me and now he was standing just a half a meter away. I didn't felt comfortable to be so close to him so I took a big step back. His smile disappeared and instead he raised his eyebrows.

"What do you want?" I asked him and crossed my arms.

"I just want to see if your ok" he said and pouted his lips.

Yeah sure. Like he came all this way just so see if I was ok.

"What are you doing here?" I repeated.

He sighed and stroke his long hair. He took a step towards me to close the air between us. He was only a few centimeters away now and I was trapped in his ice cold gaze. My heart started to pound even faster.

"I want to ask you something" he said and put his big hand on my shoulder. The touch made me shiver again and I quickly snapped his hand away.

"You know the night my brother..." He started and my eyes widened. I looked away from his gaze but that didn't make it better. He cupped my chin with his hand forcing me to look into his eyes.

"Y-ye-yes?" I asked nervously.

He stroke a loose hairstraind behind my ear.

What if he knew?

"I know that you were the last one who met him before.. He died.." he said biting his lip and his eyes got even colder. "..and I know what you did.."

Shit

He knows.

He knows what happened.

He knows what I've done.

The panic in my body was so strong and it felt like I was going to explode. I tried to run away but he was holding me in a strong grip. I bursted into tears and started to hit him in the chest.

"LET GO OF ME!" I screamed.

He let out a small chuckle and that made the panic in my body grew even stronger.

"PLEASE LET ME GO!" I screamed even louder and the tears flooded down my cheeks. I kept hitting him in his chest but soon I realized it was pointless. He was much stronger than me so he probably didn't feel a thing. I stopped hitting him and I let my arms fall down on my sides. I was crying silently.

"Shhhhh little princess... Don't cry..." He said and washed away a tear from my red, swollen cheek. "I know something you can do for me"

*

I was standing outside Harry's hotel room again as I was trying to wash away the tears on my cheeks. My heart was still pounding in my chest. I didn't want Harry to see me like this but I didn't have any choice. I had to talk to him.

Harry was standing at the window with a bottle of beer in his hands.

"Grace what happened?" He asked me anxiously when he saw me.

I didn't answer. I was just standing there looking at him. Oh god I love him so much.. I just wanted to give him a big bearhug and say that everything's fine. That I'll stay with him forever.

But I knew what I had to do.

"What happened?" He asked me again. He walked towards me and cupped my chin with his hand. His touch felt so good... It didn't felt like this when Carson touched me. But I couldn't let him do that. I snapped his hand away and that made Harry raise his eyebrows.

"Grace talk to me"

C'mon Grace you can do this. You have to do this..

It was too hard to look into his beautiful, brown eyes so I looked down on my feet. My whole body was shivering and my heart was pounding loudly in my chest.

"Harry I can't do this anymore" I whispered and tried my best not to start crying again. I needed to be strong.

"Do what?" He asked carefully

"You know what I mean Harry" I said and met his gaze again. I imediatley regret it when I saw that his eyes were filled with tears. I quickly looked down at my feet again, afraid to start crying.

I heard him swallow before he asked: "Are you breaking up with me?"

I couldn't say anything. I just nodded.

"But..." He started and took my cold hand in his warm. "But I love you Grace"

I love you too! My head screamed. I love you, I love you, I love you!

STOP IT GRACE BE STRONG!

"I know Harry.. but I don't love you" I whispered and before he got to answer I was already running down the stairs. I bursted into tears again and I quickly ran out from the hotel.

I'm so sorry Harry...

~Author's note~

Hello everyone! @madavidsson here!

I just wanted to tell you that me and @givemehoranhug are writing one chapter each on this fanfic. I know that she already told you this but I just wanted to remind you guys! :)

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-M