As Much As I Love You (Harry Styles Fanfic)

Chapter 6

I heard a knock on the door again.

How the hell could he find me here? Did he followed me here yesterday?

My heart started to pound faster and I let out a heavy sigh. I slowly got up from the bed, afraid to get dizzy and fall. My muscles were sore and it felt like my head was 100 pounds heavier. I tried to wipe the tears of my cheeks and step by step I was walking towards the door. I took a deep breathe and opened it.

He was standing there, looking at me with panic in his eyes. His hair was a mess. His eyes were swollen and red, like he had stayed up all night crying. He was wearing the same clothes as yesterday, a white plane t-shirt and black skinny jeans.

"Harry what are you doing here?" I asked looking away from his tired eyes.

"I was just about to ask you the same thing" Harry answered. His voice came out a bit raspy making my heart thumb against my chest loudly. Thoughts from yesterday ran through my mind.

"I won't tell anyone Grace, I won't tell anyone what you did if you do exactly what I say.." Carson said looking at me with cold eyes.

"I'll do anything" I answered. My hands were shivering.

"Promise?" Carson asked

"I.. " I said. " I promise"

A small smile spread across his lips making me freak out even more.

"I want you to know how it feels, to lose someone you love" he said playing with my hair but I quickly snapped back his hand.

His smile disappeared. His eyes got even colder. His grip against my arms even stronger.

"I'll give you one chance Grace" He started. "I'll give you ONE chance to break all the connections with the one you love. And I think you know who I mean.." Carson said waiting for a respond from me. The panic was strong in my chest. My teeth was shivering against each other.

"H-Ha-Harry...?" I whispered and he nodded as an answer.

"And if you don't do what I've told you. I'll make you suffer even more" I couldn't see anything, my tears blinded me. My whole body was shivering as memories flashed by my eyes. I killed his brother. I deserve this.

"I know what I have to do" I said and I heard my voice crack at the end.

The smile on Carson's lips was back again.

"Are you alone?" Harry asked glancing over my shoulder as I snapped back to reality.

I nodded as a reply.

"Can I come in?"

"Harry I don't know if that's a good idea I...." I started but Harry was already inside. He sat down at the small bed and looked down at his feet.

I closed the door and looked at him. I crossed my arms and waited for him to say something, but he didn't.

"Harry you can't be here" I said breaking the silence.

He slowly turned his eyes towards me, who were filled with tears. I felt my body shiver and tears that threatened to run down my cheeks. Harry opened his mouth like he tried to say something, still not looking away from my eyes.

"There are many things that I would like to say to you.." He started. It felt like he was starring right into my soul. "But I don't know how" He whispered.

"Tell me.." I whispered back. The need to be close to him was strong, but I need to be strong. I need to keep Carson's promise. What if Carson knows Harry is here? What is he going to do? "I'll make you suffer even more" his voice echoed in my head as a cold shiver run down my spine.