I woke up at 5am, because Jace was being a little monster again.
It didn't matter, I loved him no matter what.
As always, I dropped Jace off at the Mclaren hospitality and went back to the Red Bull one.
Usually, I would just go back to my room and work a bit, but after everything Max did for me, I decided to stay at his hospitality.
"You're still here?" Max asked as he walked in the hospitality. I could see he was happy to see me, even though he was surprised.
"I stayed for you" I smiled, tapped the Red Bull can a few times. "And for this"
"So half of it was for me, I'll take that" he said, grabbing a can of Red Bull himself. "How are you feeling?"
"Tired, very tired" I smiled, wanted to hide the fact that I was even more tired than I could explain. "I have a dinner with Lando tonight"
"Oh" Max's smile dropped a little. "About what?"
"Everything" I shrugged. "I need closure, I need to know why, how many times, just everything"
"You sure you want to know all that?"
"No I'm not sure" I sighed. "But I have to know"
He nodded, as if he understood what I was trying to say.
His trainer tapped him on the shoulder, a sign that he needed to go.
"Listen to what he has to say, but don't let him play you again" he said as he got up. "And if you need me just text or call me"
"I will, thank you Max" I said as I got up as well.
"You can take a nap in my driver's room if you want to" he offered.
"Really?" I don't know why I got so excited about that but a nap sounded so good right now. "Thank you so much"
"Stop thanking me Rae" he chuckled a little, pulled me in a hug.
Those hugs got me through the day lately.
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I went back to my room after the practice sessions. Got ready and got Jace ready as well.
I did my makeup, straightened my hair and picked out a nice dress.
I don't know why I still put so much effort in this.
He was right on time, knocked on my door at precisely 6pm.
And as I opened the door, Lando was standing right in front of me. His curls were perfect, smelled amazing, looked handsome as fuck.
This wasn't gonna be an easy evening.
"We have to take Jace, Juliette left today" I said as I pointed at Jace, who was running to Lando as soon as he saw him.
"Yeah okay, no problem at all-"
"And we will go to dinner in the hotel, I don't want people to see us together" I quickly added. I could trust my hotel employees. They weren't gonna take pictures and start rumors.
"Okay, I'm fine with everything" he said as he took Jace's hand.
We were walking through the hallway, Jace in between us. As if we were a real family.
And I wish we still were.
The dinner went fine, Jace was being calm and coloring on his placemat.
"Why did you do it?" I asked.
He sighed, because he knew I would ask that question. He was prepared for it.
"I don't know Rae, I was stupid, maybe even a little intimidated by you"
I rolled my eyes. "That just stupid"
"Yes I know" he nodded, put his hand on mine. "I fucking miss you Rae, I will do everything to have you back"
"Are you still hooking up with her?" I asked, looking at our hands.
"No, not at all"
I sighed, looked at Jace, who smiled at the both of us.
"You know he needs a family, for us to be together" Lando said as he looked at Jace. "He always asks for you when he's with me"
I nodded. "He asks for you too"
"I want this to work, Rae. I really do" his thumb rubbed against the palm of my hand.
"Well, you had to think about that before you slept with her" I snapped, taking my hand back.
"Yeah.." he mumbled, looking down.
"Let's go" I said, getting up and took Jace out of his chair. "It's late and he needs to sleep"
"I will walk you back" Lando said as he got up as well.
He didn't need to walk me back to my room, we were literally already in the hotel.
But I wasn't gonna make a scene here, so I just nodded.
We walked back to my room in silence. Only Jace talked a little.
"Can I put him to sleep? It's been a while" Lando asked.
I sighed, I shouldn't let him in my room, I don't know what was gonna happen if I did.
But this wasn't about me, nor about him. It was about Jace. So I nodded and opened the door for the both of us.
I wasn't gonna give in, even though he looked absolutely handsome.
I wasn't.
Definitely wasn't gonna give in.
No way.
