My non-binary Enemy [COMPLETE]

Chapter 10.Miscarriage

Akiesha pov.

It's almost 6 months but still ganon parin ang turi ni Jin sakin.I always understand him.Pero napapagod nako...Pagod nakong saluin ang relasyon namin.And I don't know if he is happy of it.

Ngayon ang check up ko sa OB and today is malalaman kona ang gender ni baby.I put a light make up and wear a hoodie.Lumabas ako ng kwarto and see Jin who is doing his work.

"Ahm hum di kaba sasama sakin?"

"Where?"

"Hospital for the ultrasound to our baby.Malalaman na kasi natin ang gender niya" mahina kong sambit.

"I'm not interested" my heart suddenly ache when he suddenly said that.

"Pero-"

"Haven't you see esha I'm not interested in that baby" galit nitong ani.

"But you said that you wants us to be a family at bubuhayin natin toh" a tears escape from my eyes at di kona napigilan ang sarili kong umiyak.

"That was before esha,I have so many priorities and I can't even handle you...And perhaps I'm not ready to be a father"

"Why you didn't tell me before?" I cried.

"Kasi ayaw kong mawala ka...I still love you esha" pumiyok na ang boses nito at tuluyan na nga itong umiyak.

"I'm sorry for those months that I haven't take care of you.i'm sorry if I was a jerk.I just pressure myself to much to our future...I'm sorry esha" he hug me tight dahilan para umiyak narin ako.I hug him tight.

"I know that you have dreams and priority.Hindi ako hahadlang sa pangarap mo hum.Pero sana naman you told me before,para hindi nako mahirapan."

"You don't know how much I cried at night.Asking to myself na may mali ba ako? Na para lang akong hangin sa mata mo,you don't know how hard it to me Jin.Ang sakit...dito" I cried and point my heart.

"I'm sorry" he hug me tight.

I cried heavily and sob."If your not ready to be a father then,bubuhayin ko itong mag-isa"

"Please no.." He shake his head at kita ko ang paglandas ng luha nito.

"It's for the best" pilit kong kinalma ang sarili ko for crying and finally let go of his embrace.

I was about to walk away when I felt the pain in my stomach.Napadaing ako sa sakit and I found myself sit in the floor.Tuluyang lumandas muli ang luha ko ng may nakita akong dugo.I sob heavily...No,my baby.

Humikbi ako ng humikbi to the point that I can no longer breath anymore.Jin suddenly rush walk towards me and carry me to the hospital.

I lost my consciousness and I found myself in the hospital.

I open my eyes and look around the place.Nakita ko si Jin at sobrang tamlay nito.He gaze at me and he hold my hand.Then I realize about my baby.

"Jin is our baby ok?" I tried myself not to cry na sana nandito pa siya,that's everything is going to be fine.

He cried and look at me."I'm sorry" he hold my hand tight.Dahilan para tuluyan na akong umiyak.

No...it's my fault.Jin hug me tight and tried to comfort me but I couldn't find myself ok nor happy.Knowing that I lost my baby.

The doctor suddenly came at tinignan kami.With a sad eyes.

"I'm sorry miss Rozver for the lost of your baby...but I found to the results.You have a twin,but unfortunately the other one didn't make it." Bigla naman kumalma ang sistema ko knowing that I still have one baby inside me.

"I must say that wag po kayong mastress and drink a vitamins and fruits regularly.And also take a meds para kapitan ni baby.I'm sorry again miss" payo ng doctor.

Tumango naman ako sabay himas ng tiyan ko.Thanks for staying baby.The doctor give me an envelope at bumungad sakin ang picture ni baby and it was a boy.

A tears escape from my eyes knowing that pangarap kona dati na magkaroon ng lalaki na anak syaka twin pa.But because of me,I lost the other one...

I look at jin na ngayon ay umiiyak akong tignan."I'm sorry" he hug me tight.Pero para lang akong tuod na hindi makagalaw.

"You said that,your not ready to be a father" ani ko.

"I was,but that was before esha.I'm ready now" a tears escape from his eyes.

"Maybe it's for the best if we broke up..." I look away and tried my best not to cry,but I couldn't.

This is the hardest decision i made and I know it's the best for the two of us.Maybe Love is not for us after all...Were still young at masyado pa kaming Bata sa ganitong sitwasyon,we still have opportunity and dreams to chase at hindi ako hahadlang sa pangarap ni Jin.That's why I let my guards down and let him go,it's for the best.

We still love each other but maybe in the right time we collide again.

At night I was busy packing my things in the bed when I felt his warm embrace.This is the last time,I can touch and hug him and I'm gonna miss this man so much.

A tears escape from my eyes and hug him tight.He cried and sob in my arms and doesn't really want to let go.

"Please just stay,were gonna fix this right?"

"I'm sorry jin"

"But you promise to me na hindi moko iiwan,you promise to me esha...Please don't leave me alone and our baby" pumiyok ang boses nito at mas lalong umiyak.

"I wish I could Jin,I really want to stay pero nahihirapan nako.Lalo na't may anak tayo"

"Mas lalo kang mahihirapan pag-wala ako sa tabi mo"

"I know my mistake is bad for hurting you and our baby.Pero ginawa ko lang yun for our future,and I got pressure up for being a father.But now esha,I'm ready...So please don't leave me" sobrang pula na ang mata nito kakaiyak and I don't know what to do anymore.

"But how about your dreams and your study?" Ani ko.

"Makakahintay yun,but losing you and our baby parang diko kakayanin.I know it's my fault kong bat nawala ang isa at pinagsisihan ko yun.I didn't give you my full attention and you got stress up...Please give me a second chance para bumawi esha" he sob heavily and pleadedly.

I'm so selfish not knowing his thoughts and situation and as his partner I should understand him and forgive him.I hug him Tight and comfort him and tuluyan na nga itong natulog kakaiyak.

I look at his angelic face who look so stress at wala talagang tulog after those months working.And at the same time studying.I kiss his cheeks at kinumutan.

"I'm sorry hummy..." Bulong ko and then I fix my stuff.