For the plot

First alcohol

'Do it for the plot' inner voice once said.
'It's gonna be fun!' people around you once said.
'What could possibly go wrong? I know my limits.' you once said.
You were so young when you first tried drinking alcohol. Just one beer for three people. You did not even feel the power of alcohol. But you wanted to. The placebo effect worked for once and you were just fooling around with your friends.
Once you were little older you tried something stronger. You felt free for the first time in a while.
The freedom was never a thing. Too much drinks and every single decision in your life, including drinking, was overthought. You drunk cried for the first time.
You're not cool anymore. You were pathetic back then.
You cried because of your family, your first crush, your friends. You realised you were not enough for the first time in this big of a scale.
Was it worth it to be happy for slight of the time?
Years gone by and you still have not quit drinking yet.
Why haven't you? It was never good for you.
You realised it's not that much of a fun when you thrown out in the bathroom for the first time, cursing every single thing related to the alcohol. You still haven't quit though.
Remember the first time you went back home from "sleepover" with your friends? The first time your parent noticed you were hung over? It wasn't that fun after all, was it?
Look at you now.
Don't do it for the plot. It's not worth it.
You were too young and stupid to realise how much of your childhood was cut off because you decided to do it.