'Do it' inner voice once said.
This time it wasn't about developing the plot. This time it was about ending it.
It was the first time you wanted to end your life.
You were just a young teenager back then.
How bad life had to treat you for you to decide to end it so soon?
You wanted it to be quick and painless.
Somehow you still wanted to suffer because you thought like you deserved to suffer.
You didn't.
You looked into the mirror with teary eyes. You saw the scars you had on your body.
Why did you do it? What did make you think like that was a good thing to do?
So desperate to unalive yourself but also with so much passion to live your best life. You couldn't have it both ways and only one option was available at the time.
You never killed yourself though.
You thought you were too weak to do it. That you were just a coward unable to do it.
You did not know back then how strong you actually were.
At the time, you were your own hero that saved you from losing the only thing we actually should be grateful for. Being alive.
YOU ARE READING
For the plot
SpiritualThis isn't about you. Or is it? It's about us. It's about us who have lost themselves so young. You'll find your way back. I hope I will too.
