High school

Chapter 12

When we got to my house I sat in the car while Jeydon grabbed his things out of the trunk. Remembering what happened last time I don't know if I'm ready to just go back to living there. All I know is I didn't want to stay at Jeydons but now I am not so sure about here either.

Jeydon opened my door and looked down at me. "Are you ok?" He asked and I nodded. "No you're not we can go back to my house if this is too much." "No, no I can do it I can." I said getting out of the car.

I walked up to my door Jeydon behind me waiting for me to open it.

I never knew that pain could exist so strong in this world. I've had ACL surgery, broken my arm a couple times, and had a couple cuncussions. I have been through so much physical pain but this pain. This agonizing pain, emotional pain was far worse than anything I've ever gone through and here I am trying to ignore it. I can't ignore this I'm not ok and I am tired I pretending I am. All my life I've pretended and I'm tired of pretending. I'm hurt. And I'm broken and that's not changing.

I dropped to the ground. I can't do this. There's no words Jeydon can say to just make me ok. I'm not ok and I can't be ok. I broke down in tears.

"I'm so sorry. And I know this hurts and I'm so sorry. You don't deserve this." Jeydon said wrapping his arms around my shoulders.

I guess that's the truth of this world. Good people suffer and bad people strive. My family didn't deserve this. My mother was a caring person who loved and laughed and could make anyone smile. My dad was funny and sweet and his bad jokes and horrible laugh made anyone laugh. And my brother was a teenager trying to find his way and make his mark on the world and all that got taken away. Why? Because God doesn't exist and neither does karma, good or bad. This world doesn't revolve around good and bad evenly. This world is corrupt and it's not fair. Not everyone gets a happy ever after.

I stopped crying and Jeydon was behind me still. "Thank you Jeydon for everything." I whined turning and hugging him.

"I told I'm here for you Addi as long as you let me." he said pulling me onto my feet. I nodded and he opened the door for me. I looked in my house full of memories and pain.

"I'll take all this down and put it in a box until you're ready but for now let's get you to bed." he said helping me upstairs.

He helped me into my bed and covered me up. "Jeydon?" I asked and he nodded at me for me to continue. "When you're done will you come back here?" I asked and he grabbed my hand. "Always." he said smiling and walking out of my bedroom door closing it quietly behind him. I fell alseep thinking about Kei.