Scarred Heart

Chapter 7

Lina’s Pov

NOTE

SKIP, SKIP, SKIP

Attempted suicide

Evening everyone, I hope you are all doing okay and healthy. If you're in any difficulty or trouble, please believe you will overcome it. You are stronger and more intelligent than you think.

In this chapter, after Lina finds out that Achuil is not her real mom. Her real mom died due to childbirth. She is forced to marry the man she hates; her dad denies that she’s her daughter but she is; her mom was a mistress; and so many more. She has a mental breakdown. Tears are literally in my eyes.

I encourage you to skip if such a topic disturbs you. Sometimes we find ourselves in abusive situations , and this destroys our self-esteem. filled with guilt, depression, anxiety and different emotions. It’s not my intention to cause suffering to anyone reading this book.

It may bring back memories that some of you choose to bury and leave behind. I plead with you: if this chapter may trigger you kindly skip it. I will have a short recap on the next chapter so you don’t feel you missed anything crucial. Please take care of yourselves.

Stay happy, always.

Love.  ALUEL

             

                   
                
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I should have never existed. What’s the value of life if it only brings pain, anguish, and suffering? I have nothing to offer. I am stupid, a murderer, an imbecile, a witch and cursed all combined. My own mother thought of me as disgusting and chose to end her life rather than take care of such a bad omen like me. A mistress’s child.

Why am I still here? Everyone would end up rejecting me. Hahahah!!!,hahahha!!!. Why is life so funny?.  I was the best candidate for abuse. What's wrong with me? Am I that bad!?

I never stole, killed, abused, or endangered someone’s life. I am down to earth polite, obedient, patient, and loyal, but all this means nothing.

I raised my head above me. The sky was clear, and the sun was bright. The sky and I are the same. It’s clear that no rain will appear today. A blind man could see that I have no evil intentions in my heart.

I wish everyone happiness and success. I never felt jealous of anyone, and I would never steal anything that had an owner. I would never plot or keep harbouring hatred, no matter how you treated me. I would always support everyone, but no one feels the same way about me.

Achuil said that the fruit doesn't fall far from the tree; does this mean that mom was also a bad omen like me?.

Did she get into Dad’s and Achuil's relationship? That’s why she hates me so much. Everything makes sense now. As the daughter of a mistress, what could I offer anyone? I start singing.

Lalala, la la la Who's the stupid kid?? I am. I am.

Who’s the cursed child? I am. I am

Who’s the mistress's child? I am. I am

Who’s the abused child? I am. I am

Lalala, la la la, let's sing together.

Lalala, la la la I am. I am

Hahahaha!!!. Why is this song so funny? I could sing it all day.

I am. I am. Let's sing together.

How pathetic I look. Mmhh, wait a damn minute!!. Dear Uncle, if he wants to marry me, I should be grateful. Who would love a bastard child? No one would even want to be near me once they find out my identity.