love never ends (Kit connor x River)

should i tell him

It's been a few days, and it's finally Friday, which means we are going on holiday. Joe stayed over tonight, and we are meeting Rosie at the train station.

I start waking up, and I look over at Kit, who's still asleep as always. I smile a bit before looking at my phone to check the time. 6:38. Yeah, kit's not gonna wake up until at least 7:15, so I quickly kiss his head before getting out of bed and grabbing a pair of boxers, and I go into the bathroom to shower

I know that kits asleep, and I could technically get fully dressed in our room, but Kit can literally wake up at any moment, and I don't want to take that risk. I pull off my clothes and hop into the shower

After about 40 minutes, I get out of the shower and quickly dry myself, take off my trans tape, and chuck it in the bin. I pulled on my boxers, and I got to put on a new roll of trans tape, but my chest is hurting, so I guess that's pregnancy symptoms shit I don't know

I haven't told Kit I'm pregnant yet. I was thinking maybe tomorrow or something I don't know it's really stressing me out. He's noticed something was up but hasn't really questioned it much he just asked if I was okay, and I just said I was feeling dysphoric, which I was so technically I'm not lying, and he just kinda left it after that

I sigh and put my tape down and quickly go in me and kits room and get out my binder, I guess I just have to wear this today. I pull it over my head, completely forgetting how hard it is to put a binder on while you're still damp

I manage to put it on, and I grab some clothes and quickly chuck them on before getting back into bed. Kit cuddles up to me, grumbling some werid shit that I couldn't make out, meaning probably he'll be waking up soon

After about five minutes, he starts waking up and yawns. He looks up at me and smiles, and puts his head on my chest

"Hey," he says, his voice all raspy from him just waking up

"Hi." I smile, playing with his hair

We sort of just look at each other for a bit before Kit gently kisses me. I kiss back a bit before moving away

"Go brush your teeth. Your breath is mank. " I laugh

"I forget as soon as I wake up, I get insulted," he chuckles

"Sorry," I say before looking down

Kit gently lifts my chin up before kissing the tip of my nose. "It's fine. I know you're joking."

I smile before Kit gets up and goes in the bathroom and shower, and I go on my phone to see a text from Rosie

My pookie ❤️

My pookie ❤️: hiii, you excited about going on holidayyy

Me: omg yesss I wanna see if I can find turtles there

My pookie ❤️: I don't think there's turtles there, but I do know there have been seals there

Me: SEALS!?

My pookie ❤️: Yeah!!

Me: oml, I'm swimming with them

My pookie ❤️: lol! Also, have you told Kit?

Me: No, not yet. I think I might tell him when we get there or tmrw

My pookie ❤️: Well, there's no rush you tell him when you want to don't feel pressured

Me: Yeah, I know

My pookie ❤️: You don't even have to tell him

Me: Yeah, but it's not fair on him that when I do get rid of it, he won't know, and I don't want to tell him after when it happened because he might feel sad that I never told him

My pookie ❤️: I understand and it is 100% your decision on what you do about it if kit want to keep it but you don't you have to go with your option it's not about other people in this situation!

Me: Yeah, I know! I'm excited to see you again

My pookie ❤️: I'm excited to see you too! I'll talk to you later!

Me: Bye!

I put my phone down, and Kit walks back in with just a towel around his waist. I blushed a bit before looking away, hoping kit didn't notice me, which I was obviously wrong because almost immediately he saw me

"What are you blushing about?" he laughs

"Maybe that you literally walked in here looking so bloody fine?" I chuckle and blush a little more

All kit could do was laugh. I cover my face, and kit drys himself a little more before throwing the towel at me and getting dressed. I move the towel off me and chuck it on the floor

"Assult," I say

"Not really." he laughs, putting on a pair of shorts

"Transphobia," I grin

"How am I Transphobic when I'm friends with yaz and kizzy, and im dating you?" he laughs and kisses my cheek

"Homophobia," I giggle

"I'm dating you!!!" He flops onto the bed and lays on top of me

"Autismphobia," I smirk

"You. Are. Fucking. Impossible." He says, kissing my face between every word before pecking my lips after

"Go put a top on," I say poking his chest

"Oh, I thought you liked me being shirtless seeing the way you blushed when i walked in." He grins

I blush more and cover my face with my hands. Kit takes my wrists and moves my hands away from my face

"Peekaboo," he laughs, puts my hands back on my face, and repeats it

I keep laughing until I start having a coughing fit before Kit gets off me and pats my back and tells me not to die. I glare at him, but all he does is smirk before getting up and putting on a top

After a while, me, Kit, and joe are sitting in the living talking we'll kit and joe are I was saying I was bored so kit put bluey on and now and now I'm ingrosed in it

As I'm sitting there watching bluey, I keep thinking about the baby and what I'm gonna tell kit like what if I tell him and he's all happy about it but then I say I want to get rid of it he's gonna get sad and angry. Should I even tell him

As my thoughts are over taking my brain, I get brought to the real world when kit turned off the tv and ruffled my hair

"Time to go," he says

"I was watching that," I say, folding my arms and pouting

"You can watch it on the train,"

"Oh yeahhh," I giggle

"Come on" he smiles

Should I tell him?