love never ends (Kit connor x River)

dildos and more

Tw: Self-harm references, scars, and smut. I WILL SAY THIS AGAIN TRANS GUYS CAN STILL EJACULATE BUT CANT PRODUCE SPERM

Sex with kit is great, amazing even, he makes me feel so loved, we've only had rough sex twice, we were both incredibly horny when it happened, which was when we was both drunk, I couldn't walk for two days and kit was laughing the whole time

I've only rode him once. We didn't like it very much, we usually just go in missionary, or I'm on my stomach, most of the time it's missionary, I think it's just that we like looking at each other and knowing from the look of each others eyes we love each other so much

The first time we had sex, which was in the hotel, we went on holiday to for our one year anniversary, feel bad for those cleaners, we was both fucking terrified, kit was scared that he'd accidentally hurt me, and I was scared that I'd get hurt and that kit would call me disgusting for not having the body of a cis guy

Like yeah I have a flat chest now, I'm on testosterone and I have a cock and balls, but I kept worrying that kit wouldn't see me as a proper boy cuz I wasn't born with that stuff you know

But that wasn't the case. Kit made sure I felt safe and literally asked if I was okay or if I was hurting every five seconds. It was really cute. If we could count the number of times we've had sex we would have lost count months ago

I've only topped once. It wasn't for me, and kit bottoming wasn't for him, so it's worked out fine. I couldn't work out how you topped, so basically halfway through, we swapped

It's so much easier being a bottom. All you gotta do is have your boyfriend or yourself shove some fingers in your ass, lube, and then shove a dick inside your ass, and the only thing you gotta worry about is walking for a day, or your back if your gonna be rough

When we don't want sex who ever is the horniest gets a blow job or hand job, usually its kit, but after a week after, my testosterone shot I'm usually am, as my testosterone levels get higher then kits then

Speaking about testosterone, I think my body hates me, I can't ever get perfect testosterone levels they are ever too low or too high. The amount of trips we've had to go to the doctors is fucking tiring.

I'm on a higher dose right now, and I have to take a shot every day and oh my fucking god I am so horny all the time, its slightly worrying the amount of boners I've had, almost every single one I've had to fix or kit had to cuz it wouldn't go away

I'm only going to be taking this shot every day for a month only, how the fuck has it only been a week and today I've already had seven boners, five of them I've had to fix and one of them kit fixed and the other one a half an hour cold shower

My brain also keeps telling me to buy a dildo so then if I wanna get fucked and kits not here, I can shove a dildo up my ass and then fantasise shit.

Kits out at the gym at the moment, so I saw this perfect opportunity to go on my laptop and look for one to buy

I sit down on our bed avoiding where my cum is, yes I literally had a wank twenty minutes ago and I'm gonna have to change the sheets

Kits not mad that I get really horny at the moment and I need to wank half the time but he can get a bit annoyed sometimes cuz all I wanna do right now is wank, get fucked, sleep and thats about it.

And he's had to change the sheets like five times this week, and he's really not happy about that

I searched on amazon for one, and bitch, I did not fucking know you can choose a size!? And I think we all know what I chose. I placed the order, and I definitely did not pay extra for the next day delivery