love never ends (Kit connor x River)

ill be waiting for you

Tw: Talk of mental health

The drive was overly quiet. We didn't say anything. There was no noise except from the engine and the indicators, I kept feeling myself glancing over at Kit. How can this all be happening? My boyfriend of seven months is taking me to my mum's place because we get assaulted and harassed everywhere we go

That's all because I'm dating people's celebrity crush. It genuinely pisses me off because these people act like they know him personally. I know I can't really say much because before I got cast to be in this winter, Kit was my celebrity crush

But kit is really different from what people make him out to be, like yeah, he's kind and yes, a massive golden retriever, but he's also really different. Before I met him, I thought like everyone else that he was what they said he is

And it makes me sick that people think that he doesn't deal with mental health. When he does, to be honest, I think sometimes that his mental health can get as bad as mine

Throughout the drive, we've made multiple stops to get food, which I didn't eat because I can't eat in the car or I throw up, travel sickness is fun, and to take pee stops, me going every single time because I have the bladder of a half potty trained two year old

We stopped at another petrol station because once again I had to piss, I got out of the car and walked over to the toilets. Fuck. There's no disabled ones. I know I look cis, well, like a 14 year old boy that's only just started puberty

I look around again, and yep, there are 100% no disabled toilets, I walk back over to the car and open the door, Kit looks up from his phone and over to me

"You done that quick?" He asks because knowing me, it at least takes me five to ten minutes in the toilet because I end up endlessly scrolling through tiktok

"No disabled toilets," I say quietly as I'm still not in the mood to talk properly because I'm still very much upset

"Just go in a bush then if there's no toilets," he says, looking at his phone again

"I'm not doing a bush wee, and there's toilets, but just the boys and girls," I say nervously, I don't like going into the boys' toilets by myself because first off all the guys in there make me feel small second off I think that I don't pass enough and they are gonna keep watching me and third off I just genuinely don't like being in public spaces like that on my own

"Right cmon then," Kit says, getting out the car and putting his phone in his pocket, "and I'm not gonna be standing there for fifteen minutes waiting for you so you can give me for phone so you gave no distractions"

I nod, and Kit locks the car, and we go over to the toilets, and we walk in, and there must be like seven guys in there, and I kinda hide behind kit

"It's fine," Kit whispers

"Too many people," I whisper back

"Just go to the toilet there gonna take no notice of you," he says quietly

"What if they think im werid for using the cubicle?" I ask nervously

"As I said, they won't take any notice." he whispers

I nod slowly, and we walk over to the cubicle, and I think Kit could definitely tell I was on edge

"It's okay, they won't say anything, okay? Im here, " he says reassuringly

I nod again, and I give kit my phone before he asks me, and he puts it in his jogger pocket, and I go inside of it and I go to lock the door and of course, there no lock so I come back out and kit looks at me confused