Beyond Those Eyes. ঌB.K

꒰ა Hey, Are we Okay? ໒꒱

Tuesday morning. It's been almost two days without any text messages or calls from Bill. I was starting to get worried, he promised he would never break contact.

I've felt down all day, so i wanted to take a walk to clear my mind like i would usually.

"Mom? Im gonna take a walk. I'll see you later." I say. "Alright hold on. What time are you coming back?" My mom asks. "I don't know exactly but I'll be here before lunch. Bye mom!" I said, carefully trying to sugarcoat the upsetting tone in my voice. "Okay, get us some souvenirs to give to the people back home if you can alright?" My mom yelled out. "Yes mom!" I said walking out our condominium's door.

I took a sigh and made my way towards the elevator. Why was Bill doing this? Was this on purpose? Or did they just lose signal because a tornado hit their house and took away every source of electricity they had? Gosh.

I strolled throughout the city. Mostly throughout the places near my condo. I took a few deep breathes and watched the billboards, they were full of Tokio Hotel advertisements and the stores were full of their albums, CDs, posters, etc.

What was i thinking? Taking a walk to clear my mind off of Bill when almost everything in this city reminds me of him and the group back in Germany.

I could feel my heart start to get heavier and heavier, the tears were starting to fall and i had to get back home before i embarrassed myself.

I got to the condominium as quick as possible and ran to my room, refusing to make eye contact or any sort of contact with my mother.

I shoved myself into the bed and buried my face into my pillows and the tears ran. What was happening? Why was Bill doing this? He knows i overthink about the littlest things. So..how could he?

| A few hours later.. |

I woke up from a long nap, i didn't have any energy. I heard my phone chime from a notification and i ran out of bed to go check if it was Bill.

I sighed, reading a message from Antonio congratulating me for finishing the shoot. I wished Bill was the one saying this.

"Au-dr-i! Get up we're going to be late!" I heard my mom call for me in a singsong tone from the living room. "What? For what mom?" I asked her, stepping outside my room.

"Come on we're going to get that Cd of yours!" My mom said. "Mom its not for me..its for Bill. But now?" I say. "Yes now! And go get dressed. Nicely alright! As if today was your last day on earth." My mom says rushing me over back to my room. She was wearing something casual, so it confused me on why she was pushing me to dress so nicely.

"But mom? This is fine.." i said, making my mom look at my outfit. "Sure..sweats and a t-shirt..no go get dressed." My mom says, pushing me back into the room and closing the door.

I had figured she made reservations for a fancy restaurant and wanted me to dress the part. So i did as she told me and dressed nicely.

I wore a black body con dress, matched with a black leather jacket on top of it. Paired with the Christian Louboutine heels that Bill bought me and skull printed stockings under it. I topped it off with a beret hat and finished my outfit. I let my hair down and quickly did my makeup on the way.

"What is this anyway mom? Why was this all so sudden..?" I asked her. "You'll see, sweetheart." My mom responded.

She took me to the music store "Melodic" and i wondered. "Mom..did you seriously make me dress up for this?" I said cockily, walking into the store with my arms crossed. "You'll be thankful i did..now. Go search for that Cd or whatever you needed. Ill be looking for restaurants outside!" My mom said with a smile. I nodded and searched through the rows of Cds.