That Day I Said I Love You [GOT7 FanFic]

56. Sober

Yoo Ae's POV

Yugyeom's words made me remember what I heard from Jaebum's eomma the day before.

Well, Jaebum has been constantly telling me stories about you so I know what you have been doing. He never missed any information about you since we left your neighborhood.

Is it really true?

If it came from his mom, I should believe it, right?

Would I believe in everything that he showed me so far?

Would I trust that those were sincere?

I walked inside the room and sat on the floor beside the bed to look at his face.

Though I am hurt and angry..

Seeing him also feels like eating a soup in a cold day.

warm..

cozy.

My heart flutters everytime I see him.

The temperature goes up everytime I am with him.

I slowly held up my hand to carress his face. I have been wanting to do this since the day I realized how I really felt for him.

Maybe.. this is the only chance I have to do that.

I know he is really drunk and would not even remember if he hears me now but I would still like to express everything to him.

"Oppa.." I said as I continue carressing his cheek. "Mianhae.."

My tears started to flow again. Until when will I keep crying?

"If only I were sensitive enough, I would have known about your feelings a long time ago, right?.. I should have realized that I like you a long time ago as well, right?.. we would had been happy.. we wouldn't have gone through heartaches.."

"..But is it right? If I did, would you have been happy? With me?"

"..Geundae oppa.. I cannot be as sexy as that girl last night, you know. I cannot even kiss you in public like that." I must have gone insane coz I'm laughing while crying right now.

"Maybe that's why you gave up on me. Coz you already know I won't be satisfying enough to be your girl. Well.. what can I do? Even compared to your fans at school, I am a complete nobody. Maybe if we'll do a beauty and body ranking in your fansclub, I would be number 99999999.. Molla!"

His hair is messy so I had the urge to play with it. "Ne, oppa.. because you're so handsome and talented, I signed up in your fansclub in school yesterday. I wanted to support you as a fan. I never even signed up for Mark oppa or my brother." I laughed at the thought.

"..but I have a confession to make. Remember that night after the afterparty of your concert when you offered to take me home? I chose to go with Mark oppa, right?"

"..What if I said my heart is pounding so loudly. I'm worried that you'd find out. Then what will you say?"

That decision.. is the worst decision I ever made though.

"..I should have just let you found it out.. regardless of what the outcome maybe.."

Suddenly, he moved. I was shocked so I immediately removed my hand. But he caught my wrist.

He repositioned himself sideways facing me with eyes closed.

"Yoo Ae.." He called my name and smiled still with eyes closed and holding my wrist. "Kim Yoo Ae.."

I hate myself for loving the way he calls my name.

"Ae-ah.."

So I answered. "Eung. Oppa.. wae?"

Then he held my cheeks with both hands. He slowly opened his dropy eyes. "Jinjja Ae-da!" (It's really Ae!) Then he smiled widely like a little kid. "Bogoshiposseo!" (I miss you/I want to see you!)

Bogoshiposseo..

That sentence..

Made my heart waver..

Made all nerves in my body awake..

Made so much impact..

Made me shiver..

Coz yes..

I feel the same way.

"Nadu." (Me too). I replied. "Bogoshiposseo, oppa.. Jinjja jeongmal bogoshipo."

He smiled widely again as he heard my reply.

"Yoo Ae-ah.." he called again. "Nan.. jalmottaesseo. Naega jalmottaesseo. (I made a mistake. It's my fault) Would you still accept me? I.." he hit his chest with his left fist. His right hand still holding my hand. "I.. I was completely wrong. I know I hurt you.."

Then he wiped the tears that kept on falling down my cheeks. "But Yoo Ae.. please don't cry anymore."

I just nodded instinctively without much thinking. "I won't oppa." I held his hands.

"Kim Yoo Ae.."

He smiled again.. a gentle one.

"Saranghae.."

This feeling..

This feeling like I could fly..

This feeling that I could do everything impossible in this world..

with just that one sentence from him.

"Nadu oppa.." I replied. "Saranghae, oppa.. saranghae, Im Jae Bum."

There I said it. I said it with no hesitations. I said what ny heart wants to say.

Jaebum oppa then closed his eyes smiling and fell asleep.

I know he is drunk. But I want to believe in everything that he said.

Isn't a person most honest when he is drunk?