Loser (Jensoo)

"Can we talk?"

Jennie stands there dressed in jeans and light sweatshirt with a plain grey shirt. Her face is a mix of slight determination and anxiety. "I broke up with Jason."

I grab the door for support. "What?"

Jennie smiles hesitantly and says quietly, "I choose you, Jisoo. I'm yours....if you'll still have me."

"Are you being serious?" I ask just as quietly. "You aren't joking with me."

Jennie just asks, "Can we talk?"

I step aside and she walks in. She goes straight to my desk and stands in front of it.

The dorm was always cramped but I think there's some comfort in being close.

I close the door and lock it before turning to her.

Jennie has her hands clasped together in front of her nervously rubs one of her thumbs on the back of her other hand. I raise my eyes to meet hers and I see her take a deep breath.

"I really did break up with Jason. I want to be with you...."

I frown and the way she left it hanging.

She breathes out shakily. "But only until graduation."

I blink quickly. "In 5 months?"

She nods. "I'll be with you until graduation. Just with you. I won't be with—I don't want to be with anybody else."

"Will you give me an answer if I ask you why?" I say as I cross my arms.

Jennie doesn't reply and stares at the floor.

I sigh and I just think.

Should I get involved with her? Is 5 months with her enough?

This is only going to end in heartbreak.

Am I ready for that? To only be with Jennie for such a short amount of time?

I step towards her and place my fingers under her chin. She lifts her eyes up and looks at me.

I hold her cheek in my hand and rub my thumb over it. "I don't think I'll be able to."

I start to pull away but she holds my hand to her cheek and uses her other hand to pull me closer. She presses her lips to mine and doesn't move them. Just a simple small kiss.

She pulls away and says softly, "I'm in love with you too Jisoo." Her eyebrows go together and she takes a shaky breath as if she's trying to control her emotions. "I wish....I wish I could tell you more but I can't. But you should know that I've been in love with you as long as you've been in love with me. I didn't have....I didn't have the courage to tell you and I couldn't tell you. All my life, everything has been decided for me. I can't choose what I want to do." She raises both her hands to my face. "But I want you. Y-You don't know. You can't know how much I fought for you. And this is all I could manage." She brings my forehead down to rest on hers. "So, with whatever time I have, I want to spend it with you. I want to have memories of someone that I love."

"Jennie...." I whisper.

I can't believe it. She likes me too.