Personal affairs

Chapter 13.

Alexandra's POV

We make it back to the hotel and all I could really think the whole ride was about how maybe Ronnie was wanting to seal the deal with me. But I was wrong I was dead fucking wrong. We have been sitting on the balcony overlooking the city and chatting about upcoming stuff for tour.

" enough about the tour, I want to know more about you." I said to him leaning back in the couch and sipping on the whiskey he had poured

" alright, ask away?" He chuckled smiling at me and leaning back putting his arm around the back of the couch indefinitely around me

" have you ever been in love?" I ask him rubbing the rim of the glass with my finger looking over the city then to him

" just jump straight to it then, alrighty, uhm, well that's a good question. Have I ever been in love?" He says rubbing his chin and looking at the ceiling

" you know, like the unconditional kinda love, the love where you would do anything for that person to protect them keep them safe, love them through the good times and the bad?" I said looking over his face that I'm learning is actually quite beautiful up close

" I know what being in love is, but no I don't think I've actually experienced it." He says finally looking over to me sipping on his own glass

" have you ever been in love?" He asks me pulling my legs up and draping them over his legs using his other hand to rub them with his fingertips causing goosebumps across my skin

" no... I haven't... I had a little fling before Milo but before all that it was just me and rayne conquering the world, then well she got the job with you and I met Milo, even though at the time I just knew she got a job as a stylist I didn't think it was actually you yourself she worked for." I said as our eyes met and he hummed a little with a smirk

" do you like having me as your assistant?" I asked him cause I actually really wanted to know even though so far it seems like it's been a little more play than work

" that's a tough question darling." He says slightly chuckling looking over the city lights

" why is it a tough question? It's a simple yes or no." I said to him shaking my head with a small smirk

" well, I can't really explain it fully, I enjoy your company, I like how you make me feel when you're around, I love your style, I like how feisty you are, to me honestly I don't want you to worry about the brunt work of being an assistant, I want you to have fun and enjoy your time, live life without restraints and feel alive just as I do now sitting here with your legs draped over me looking over the city lights sharing a bottle of whiskey." He says looking into my eyes

My cheeks go red and I honestly don't know what to say. Instead I look over the city and try to calm my fast beating heart. His hand still going up and down my leg softly before finally resting on my thigh.

" so what's all that supposed to mean?" I ask him drinking my drink again feeling as if I stood up I'd fall right back over

" exactly what I just said babygirl. I want to break those walls you have in place and be as possibly close to you as I can be. Look I may be a smartass but I promise I have a heart of gold, and when you're ready to come around and find out I'll be here." He said to me and I'm left once again speechless I honestly don't know what to think

I know I'm not exactly ready to give my heart over to someone again, but I know if I did Ronnie would be the one I gave it to... he does make me feel alive, he warms my bones and soul awakening me everyday helping me feel like myself again.

" I got a question for you now, and you don't have to answer it but, why did you allow yourself to deal with that for so long?" He asks Lowly his voice deep and intriguing

Do I really even know the answer to that? I sit and think and think but I honestly don't even know, maybe it's the fact I was scared. Or maybe if I tried to leave he threatened to kill me?

" uhm... well... he uh... he threatened me. Many times. He already proved to burn my shit... he killed my dog which lead me to believe he could and would kill me if provoked... told me if I ever did leave he would stop at nothing to find me. Kill me. And bury me in the deep marshes somewhere. I spoke up many times yeah, but every time was a mistake because that resulted in punishment. Me getting hit, him tracing my body with blades threatening to slice me open. Many times he let his friends have me..." I started to ramble on but Ronnie got closer to me our faces inches apart

His eyes swelled up with tears in his ducts looking like they wanted to escape and cascade down his cheeks but he didn't let them.

" I am so sorry I didn't come in your life earlier darling, I see now why you'd want to move here after tour... to protect yourself and be safe...but I promise from this point on I vow to protect you and make sure you never feel like that again." He said our lips brushing together as he finished

My breath hitched in my chest and I felt like I couldn't breath, his skin touching mine feeling like silk against it, never wanting it to move.

" Ronnie?" I say softly my hand reaching up and cupping his face, he closed his eyes his head tilting in my hand ever so slightly as if he was a wolf bowing to its new found owner.

He doesn't answer me instead he just presses his lips softly to mine, my body feels like liquid melting beneath him slowly, my heart racing out of my chest and my stomach doing flips over and over. Our lips tango for a few moments and he pulls away so our noses touch

" if this is what the beginning of being in love feels like, please indulge me Alexandra." He says his voice goes huskier almost as if he were to be begging me to keep him in this line of my blazing fire.

" I can't answer that right now, but Ronnie what I do know is I feel the same and I want to let you in but it will take time.. healing... understanding..." I say to him softly running my hands through his silky long hair and he growls lowly closing his eyes once again this wolf bows before me

" take all the time you need, I'll help you and teach you not everyone is bad darling." He says to me and comes between my legs resting his head on my chest

I lay my head on his turning it to the side overlooking the city, still running my fingers through his hair. Did all of this really just happen? Am I allowing myself to finally overcome what Milo put me through and maybe try opening my heart to someone new?