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Ronnie's POV

Alexandra had went into the bathroom to get ready to leave and I sat on the bed watching her carefully but also looking at my phone to make sure everything is good with Chris and his band at the venue. I look up at one point and I can see she had removed her bandages finally seeing the damage up close for the first time since not being drugged and tied up then bandaged up.

I can see her in deep stare which I instantly know that means she is stuck inside her head, she's in a place that's not here but a place in her brain that almost seems like a void. I would know because sometimes my mind takes me to that same place, that place that reminds you of everything in that moment, a place that's black and dark and cold.

I can see her place her hands over the scars tracing them, her eyes swell with tears her cheeks and nose turning red, I quickly set my phone down going to her and wrapping her up. Her cries growing a little louder every time.

"Why... why....why.... Why fucking me.... WHY!!!" She says into my chest before yelling out and in this moment I feel as if I feel her pain. In her voice, her eyes, her heart, temporary.

It's only temporary..
The pain.

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Alexandra's POV

Rayne and Ronnie helped me get ready and finally feel a little better. I hate the fact that even happened, I really wasn't prepared for the shock of seeing them like I thought I was. Anyways, no need to dawn on it, I have a concert to go to and people to show up for, the pain can wait for now I'd like to call this little part; happy hour.

As Ronnie pulled the car into the parking area for back stage, I looked down and fixed my jeans a little shifting in my seat. I can only imagine how this is gonna feel walking back into the same "space" where it all happened in the first place.

Ronnie places his hand on my thigh gripping it gently so he doesn't hurt what's still tender. I give him a little smile as he parks the car and shuts it off. He turns to me and reaches over grabbing my face gently to face him.

" I love you, and I mean, I really fucking love you darling. You are everything that I have inside myself, you are my woman, my lifeline, do you understand? We are gonna go into this venue, kick some ass, play a great ass show, and after have a little after party before leaving." He says to me smiling with a sly smirk at the end and I shake my head rolling my eyes and placing a kiss to his lips, grabbing his face with both hands

I can't describe the feeling that overcomes me, I'm turned on, but I'm also in love, oh and there's that feeling of excitement, why don't we just bring in all the feelings.

" oh Ronnie, there's not enough words to describe the way I feel, but maybe at the little after party I can show you. So Let's go kick some ass and most importantly, I love you Mr Ronnie radke." I say with a smirk teasing him a little. He bites his lip and reaches his hand up to my throat his fingers causing goosebumps to rise on my skin as they tighten just enough around my neck.

He gives me a certain look as he brings me closer his eyes dark yet soft.

" mine." He growls lowly with a smirk before getting out and coming to my side, letting me out. I step out of the car, grabbing his hand as we walk into the venu.

I take a deep breath as the breeze blows by calming myself and my thoughts. Maybe some whiskey would help this occasion, I think to myself as we make it back stage. People bustling around everywhere, sound people. Visual effects. Equipment. Safety. It's a lot I'll tell ya.

" hey man! What's up!" Chris hollers to Ronnie from near the stage with a big smile

We begin to walk over and while we do so, I have only now come to realize I actually haven't been able to speak to Chris yet. When we first met the other night it was only briefly so I'm hoping he's actually trustworthy. I mean at the same time Ronnie wouldn't have called him for that situation if he wasn't so...there's that.

" what's up brah." Ronnie says playfully back to Chris as they do their little "bro shake"

I roll my eyes and fold my arms, smirking enjoying the scene unfold, this is a new Ronnie I haven't quite seen yet. I knew he was funny and goofy, but this is entirely different. This is like when two best friends see eachother after being separated for some time.

" hey you doing alright?" Chris asks me with a smile as him and Ronnie finish their conversation. Is it just me or did that seem a little forward? I'm probably just overthinking, it Could be nothing.

" yeah I'm alright. What's going on with Andy?" The words leave my mouth before I can even catch them and my heart skips a beat shit I didn't mean to do that

Ronnie stands closer to me wrapping his arm lowly around my waist.

" uhhhh, Ronnie?" Chris says looking between me and him

" why don't we have a chat about that in a little bit, for now how about we just focus on rehearsals." Ronnie said lowly in my ear as he leaned back up

A nod of my head was all I could give and also a small smile and wave to Chris as we walked away to head to his dressing room. What did he mean by that? Did something happen to Andy? Is there an issue?

I took a seat on the big black leather sofa pulling out my new phone and finish setting it up, immediately adding rayne and Ronnie in it. It feels better knowing Andy can't contact me now, i mean I'm sure if he really desperately wanted to find me he would.

" so why didn't you wanna talk about the Andy situation?" I blurt out looking at Ronnie who stands across the room putting on his black cargo jeans and signature boots.

" well for starters Andy's been all over California. Laying low for the most part in all kinds of different areas. I don't know what he's getting at but slowly all of his stuff is becoming inaccessible, meaning Chris is slowly beginning to not be able to hack into his shit anymore." Ronnie says and my heart sinks low in my chest

Andy could be planning something or he really is just trying to lay low, I mean who knows with him. He got a girl sent to the damn crazy house with how badly he fucked her up.

" I can see your gears turning babygirl, it's okay, we leave in the morning for Vegas and start our new life, just focus on that okay? We are keeping tabs on Andy until there's nothing left we can do." He said reassuringly bending down infront of me and grabbing my face gently

" yes sir." I say playfully with a little smirk

" don't do that to me darling, not now. I love you I'll see you in a little bit." He said to me kissing my lips in a passionate kiss

My heart fluttering feeling him lean up and bring me closer to him. His body heat sending goosebumps down my body as it radiates. This is weird but my brain understands Ronnie isn't the one who hurt me, so instead of shying away from the inevitable I can't help but fall helplessly into it. Into him. His strong hands caressing my body, roaming it softly making my body tremble beneath him.

" I love you. Now go kick some ass in rehearsal." I say to him pulling back from the kiss with a smile

He smiles his show stopping smile and gives me a wink before standing and leaving the dressing room. My heart needs this man, I need this man, he's all I could have ever dreamed of and I honestly feel as if true love has finally found its way to me.