When golden turns into rust

All too well

Note:Okay so its the end of my school year and im doing a play so i need to memorize some lines and im also going to france but worry not,i will still write when im in france but i'll be a bit busy these weeks!!🩷🩷
Oh and also im sosososoooo sorry about how short this chapter is😭😭
I walk through my room,pacing,thinking about what to do.

In three months the 74th games start.And its expected for me to be the mentor of the female of District 4.

Im not excited.I haven't been excited.I will never be excited.

I mean the tribute will most likely be older than me because there are a lot of careers this year.

I honestly do hope it's someone older.A career.Because i feel anxious about mentoring a little girl.I'll have to comfort them and honestly they'll never make it.

The things is,Snow requested me to be mentor.So i can go to the capitol and get sold,i think.

The thing is,im so terrified of everything.My first tribute to mentor.And then we have the forced prostitution.And i'll be forced to do it,for sure.Even if Mags takes my place,i'll be forced to go to the capitol and get sold.

I collapse in my bed.Its been 3 months since i left Vickie.She's not doing well.I mean financially she's doing well but she seems so sad and she tries to talk to me all the time but i don't budge.

Theres a knock on my door.Its Finnick.I can tell by the rhythm.

"No."

I say because this is My overthinking time and i don't want to get bothered.Still,the door opens.

Finnick walks in and closes the door behind him.He leans against the wall.

"Archer we need to talk."

He says,he looks at me seriously.I sit down at the edge of the bed,facing him.

"What is it?"

I look at him.He has this frown on his face and i don't trust it.

"Archer..Its about Vickie-"

I cut him off.

"No.I don't want to talk about it."

I say.He sighs and walks closer to me.

"Archer is know you don't.But this is important."

He is making me curious now.I wait for him to continue.

"Arch...You've been acting differently these past few months.I know its the effect from Snow's party from the Victory Tour.But i also know its because of you distancing yourself from Vickie.I get it,alright?And don't tell me i don't.I went through the same thing,only i didn't distance myself from you at last moment.But please,think.Think again.You're making snow win."

He says.Theres some silence for a few minutes as i process his words.

"Snow has already won.He has all the districts in his grip

I say 3 minutes later.He sighs in frustration.

I don't want to argue with Finnick,but really what else can i do?He's smart,alright. Yes,maybe he does know me better than i know myself but what if this is leading to an argument?I still have questions to myself.

Im frustrated with myself.

"No,he's just entering his victory.He will never win.With some things he hasn't won,but he just doesn't like to acknowledge it."

I look at him and i almost immediately notice theres something in his expression.He's hiding something.I decide to question further.

"Like what?!"