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Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Its been freaking TWO DAYS!! where is he?! I don't even have his number, of course i broke his phone afterall! He is so selfish! He says that he loves me but now he ain't even coming to see me! Punk! I will teach him a very good lesson once he come here. He only uses me and kiss me, well his pout is my biggest weakness, can't help but fall in love!

I am again feeling so lonely, i have been waiting for the same person who used to visit me everyday from last 2 days, its thursday today! We last met on tuesday! Its sooooooooo long!

I should not worry, he must be busy! We didn't went to school for almost 2 months! There must be a lot of work, plus we r in 11th! I want to go back and rewind the time when i was in 3rd, life used to be beautiful and enjoyable that time and now its only depressing and sleep deprived! Uff i hate it, the only good part of my life right now is shivin, he keeps me entertain and i feel loved whenever he is beside me, i miss him!

As i was lost in my own world, my phone rang and i read the name, "hey" i answered, expecting a girl's voice from the other side.

"H-hey aryan, how are u?" Ayushi stuttered, and i wonder what is the reason but decided to let it go.

"I am fine as wine, what about u?" I replied with a chuckle, and i could hear faint chuckle from other side which seems like a fake laugh.

"I am good too! Umm aryan i have to tell you something" she said and i could feel the nervousness in her voice.

"Hmm, what?" I asked.

"You see, you might not like to hear this thing but...........shivin flew to california today in morning, and he might not come back"

"What? But......." i murmured, my hands trembling and i felt numb. A spark of different types of emotion went through my whole body making me unsteady. HOW COULD HE DO THIS?! no. She must be pranking on me and yeah that would be it, but what if......

"If u think its some kind of prank, than let me tell u its not a prank! You must be wondering why shiv ain't coming from 2 days because he left today, and i certainly don't have any idea when he is going to come back, not when, if" she retorted.

"W-why?......" i almost whispered, tears started to glow in my eyes and i let them out! How could he do this to me?! He loves me then why did he left me?! I just want an explanation, its dreadful and it hurts!

I miss his touch, his feel when he smash his lips on mine, his smile when he laughs at his own lame jokes, his hand which caresses me everytime i feel uncomfortable, his eyes which relaxes me eeverytime i feel fear and nervous, his warm embrace which makes me forget all my worries in my life, i miss all of them! His pure heart, he is ready to sacrifice himself for a complete stranger, if someone see him they will think he is some physco, but i know he is an innocent person who cannot even think about hurting someone, not even his biggest bully.

"But ayushi, why he did not tell me? Am i that bad? Did he not like me? Did i do something wrong?" I bombarded her with questions as tears rolled down my eyes.

"No aryan....he loves u a lot! He didn't told u because he knew you would be hurt and maybe even hate him, and this is the last thing he ever wanted!" She replied with concern in her voice.

"Then why?! Why the heck did he leave me?!" I yelled.

After a great silence, she answered. "He did not wanted to leave you, never! He cried a lot, when he met u 2 days ago, he was so sad and cried a lot that day, his health became worse because of that! And its his parents forcing him to go with them, for his future!" She replied but i was not able to stop crying.

".......do u have his number or his adress?" I asked wiping my tears harshly.

"No aryan, he said he will buy an US sim, he doesn't have an INDIAN sim, my cousin who lives in USA, she also have US sim so whenever she will come over, i will talk to him that time" she said.

"Can i talk to him too?" I asked with some hope.

"Aryan........i don't think so! My cousin won't and will never lend her phone to her complete stranger, but i will try my best" she said with disappointment in her voice.

"I am sorry" she continued and hung up the phone.

MY heart ached as her voice echoed in my mind, that means i will......never be able to talk to him or see him again? I know i can be a bit nasty sometimes but what the heck did i do to deserve this?! This was the first time i got someone who loved me so dearly. My diary, he was so curious to see it! It was about him, i made his drawings and wrote many things about him, what he likes, what are his hobbies but now who will read them, i have no option but to wait.

He left me like my mom did years ago.

That night i cried a lot! Why it has to be me?!

Why?

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HI LOVELIES~

I am so sad today, i know how it feels when you leave someone u love a lot, in this case i m shivin and my bestie is aryan, my dad got TRANSFERRED to other city so i m shifting today too, my besties were crying their heart out! And ofc my 1st love, my 1st crush whom i love so much don't even know i exist, i miss him already!

My cousins were sobbing continuously, my grandmother was also crying and now i m also crying while writing this chapter not because of my family or my friends.

BECAUSE I MISS RYAN AND CHRIS SOOOOOO MUCH!!!!
like bro cmon! For an author the characters of their story are like their child.

Ryan, chris, aryan and shivin are my sweet little kids!
I honestly miss writing 'a trip to goa', yall are giving so much love to that story, thank u so much!♡♡
I swear bro ryan was so similar to me, and chris was so similar to my bestie hahhaha coincidence.

Bye~