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I woke up with a severe headache, i do remember someone was yelling and sobbing few hours ago, but i was too tired and too ravenous to open my eyes, last night someone was feeding me something, i could feel it, but it still didn't repelled my hunger considering how low that amount of food it was.

I tilted my head up and tried to move my hand but it was under something or more like someone was holding it, i felt the warmth and i shivered, as the touch was so soothing and caring, i immediately realised who it was.

I straightened up my position till my curves as not to disturb the man sleeping on my tummy, a few days back i was the one sleeping on his tummy now he is the one. He was holding my right soo tightly that it turned red, and his head was on my tummy while his face was turned to my side.

I chuckled and noticed his more torn shirt, and i realised that i was in my sando not in my shirt, then i saw the cloth of his shirt, it was drenched in water, i again looked at the boy...i got emotional whenever i see him like this, it was not his fault, i know he cares for me but...he just can't like me, maybe he only sees me as a friend or at least as a survivor partner.

I lifted his hand and his head so that i could stand up, but i fell on my knee, the noice caused him to wake up and he immediately rushed to me to help me, my knees were getting weak and it was getting hard to stand up without any nutrition in your body, when you feel like a structure yourself, its really really hard...i was more malnourished him, but i could see the weakness in his body also, and it was getting hard for him to stand also.

"hey shivin, are u okay?" he said with a concern look, he stood me up and made me sit on wooden plank and instead he sat down on floor on his knees in front of me, and held both my hands.

"s-shivin, yesterday night i was so so so so scared that i thought you were going to.....lose it, you were burning like sun and i knew you were ravenous and to save you, i fed all the food and water to you, i cried a lot i thought you were not going to make it to dawn...it was really horrifying" he took a sigh and continued.

"i just wanna say, i am so so so s-sorry for hurting you, i was so dumb and shit at that time!! i was literally dying in the pool of guilt after saying all that to you, it was absolutely not your fault, we can love whoever we want right? YOU CAN LOVE ME AS MUCH AS YOU WANT! I WILL NOT SAY A THING!! YOU CAN CUDDLE WITH ME, KISS ME, AND DO ANYTHING YOU WANT!! but p-please, don't ever leave me!! its impossible to survive without you!! i am so sorry!! i am not homophobic...its just i can't bring myself to like you back like you do, you care for me, love me, and you just make me feel how important i am to you...you still make my heart flutter by your small moments, but i just..." he stuttered and tears were visible on his cheeks, i slowly kissed his tears and held his hands now.

"you don't have to say sorry, it was my fault, all my fault! i was just so angry that how could you not like me back after kissing me like that? but that was a dumb question, a really dumb question...after all i can't force you to like me right? you are my first crush and i believe its 'love' for me...whenever i see you, i just couldn't take my eyes of you, we have been here for only 2 weeks but we grew closer and i swear these 2 weeks are the best part of my life because of you, remember we are in same class? so don't you worry, i will still come to you and yap about every possible thing in this world, and yeah i am telling you...don't get too attached to girls or even guys except me, or i will lose it might get into a fight with them" i pouted at the last sentence and his sobbing turned into chuckle. I looked at him, despite being fully malnourished he was still happy...with me, i will do anything to see this smile.

"laugh more, you look cute...and don't get scared on the smallest things, its not like i was really going to die" i stated with a smile.

"i will not let you die, don't say it! neither in the basement nor outside the basement, after all you are my really cute and really attractive lover" he pulled my cheeks, and i gave him a death glare which made him laugh more.

I pulled him closer and kissed him on lips, closed my eyes and poked his face with my hands, his eyes were still opened in shock and i smirked and back fired at him. The mark he had left on my lip, i am gonna give him the same mark, he moaned as i bit his lower lip, the urge to listen more of his moaning.

We pulled out soon and i smirked at him "why the heck did you do that?" he questioned, his lower lips bleeding. "karma comes back, and you said i can do anything with you right?" i smirked and he rolled his eyes and started to tickle me which made me laugh my lungs out. We both fell on the floor and i jumped at the top of him.

"you know what? I JUST LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCH!! I AM READY TO SPEND WHOLE LIFE WITH YOU HERE BUT WITH WATER, FOOD, AND A PROPER BED" he chuckled, "and yeah, then we will marry and have kids and then-" he covered my lips with his palm and blushed furiously, which made me hug him soo tight, he laughed between our hug and we both stayed like that for few good minutes.

Now i don't need heaven...i am ready to live in this hell with you