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Its getting hard.

So hard.

Its been 3 days and i haven't ate anything since monday, i am trying my best to take it easy and normal so that shivin won't panic, if i started yapping about my hungriness then i am damn sure that he will definitely feel very guilty and at last he will start crying.....crybaby.

Even though as far as i know i only love him as a friend, WARNING= DON'T CALL ME A GAY! BCZ I AM NOT!, yeah back to the topic, so i don't love him like lover or anything, but that doesn't mean i don't care about him; i am not that bad *pouts* but i consider him my bestest friend, i can share anything with him...i can cry even in his presence....and i know he will keep my secrets to him to his grave.

Currently, a cute boy sitting in front of me, laughing so much while telling me how he got 14 injections in his childhood because a dog bite his leg, its not funny but horrifying; i don't know why is he laughing so much? but whatever, i am happy to see him like that even in our worst time.

".....and i was crying consistently hahahaha" he laughed, and i smiled seeing him like that, my one hand was on my stomach as my hunger and thirst was getting out of control.

Usually at home, my step mom gives me a lots of food, her cooking is amazing! but after 5 minutes of my meal i always feel hungry again so i eat again but here, i have to starve for 2 more days...hope that the teachers will come soon because i don't want to die here.

"hey aryan? u okay?" he questioned out of blue, and i realised i spaced out again!

"umm yeah i m good, why?" i raised my eyebrows.

"nothing just-" he got cut in between by the sound of droplets.

"oh no! the heck its raining again" i said clutching my hair and shivin looked at the hole with concern.

"that means again soggy floor, it feels like we are walking on marsh" he frowned.

"more two days in this hell, i hope they come soon" i frowned too and he held my hand and caressed it.

"don't worry aryan, i am here with you! i will not let any of us die here especially not you" he smiled and i gave him a weak smile as i really didn't had any energy to do anything, i again put my hand on my stomach and pressed it, he noticed it and his smile changed into a frown. 

It was getting so hard for me to do anything, now i can't even help him with things, i feel like an useless person! its the worst!

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It must be 1 am currently, and i woke up at the midnight and found shivin sleeping on my shoulder and we were sitting on my plank, i realised we were playing rock, paper, scissors and we fell asleep. I shivered as the weather was getting cooler and whole floor was soggy.

I smiled at him and kissed him on forehead, without knowing tears started flowing from my eyes, i miss my mom so much....i just want to get out of here as soon as possible!! i don't want to die here! it hurts so bad...my family must be thinking that i m on that trip but they don't know the cruel reality, they are not biological but still they took care of me as their own son, its a blessing that they adopted me, i miss them soo much...my small brother, we used to fight a lot everyday but i miss him the most now, he is just 13 and his and my preferences are really different so we never agreed to same things, but now i wish i can say 'sorry' to him for all the words i have said to him, i miss them! i miss my friends, and my family so much!

I covered my mouth with my right hand so that he can't hear my sobbing, my right hand was on his shoulder, without any second thought; i hugged him as tightly as i can! i do miss my family but i never ever want to part ways with the boy in my hands, even tho i don't love him like that i still feel very possessive and affectionate towards him, i will never ever let anyone hurt him...he has to be protected. BY me.

hope we can get out of this hell ASAP.