Playing With Fire ( BECKFREEN G!P)

Part 20

"Mrs Chen." The waitress must have said my name at least three times until I realised he was actually talking to me. I still wasn't used to my new name, and I had been married for over six months now.

"Sorry," I smiled looking up at her.

"Your husband called to say he is running a little late."

"That's fine," I smiled, playing with my napkin as the waitress nodded walking off.

I was getting used to being left waiting while Alex tried to get away from work. New York was so fast paced I could hardly keep up.

"Darling, so sorry I'm late." Alex rushed over, hisdark hair beaten down from the rain. "I was in talks with your father. It looks like London is a go ahead." he smiled, kissing my lips.

"Alex, that's wonderful," I beamed.

"You look beautiful, as always," Alex grinned, sitting down and taking me in. "Shall I order some wine?" I nodded watching his as he spoke in French to the waitress. he ordered our food at the same time and went back to gazing at me. "I was thinking about taking you away this weekend. Your mother thinks it will do you some good," he mused.

"You were?"

"How does a weekend in Miami sound?"

"Miami?"

"One of my clients is celebrating their 50th birthday and we have been invited. She has assured me it will be quite an event."

"Sounds like fun," I smiled, sipping my red wine.

"I booked us into the Miami Hilton," Alex added. "I wanted to spoil my wife."

"Alex, you always spoil me." I rolled my eyes at her. Alex just chuckled.

We finished our lunch. Alex dropped me off at our apartment before returning back to work. I wandered into the lonely space, running my hands over the furniture. I looked at my wedding photo, stroking my hands over the sliver metal frame.

I was exactly where I thought I would be a year later from that night. - The night I said goodbye to my heart; the night I said goodbye to my soul.

As soon as college was over I was thrown into wedding plans. My mother was too keen. I knew it would only be a matter of months until I was pushed down the aisle. It wasn't as if they were forcing me. I knew Alex would treat me right, but when your heart belongs to someone else, it's not easy to give yourself away. I had no choice but to break contact with Nam. I just couldn't face the fact that she saw her when I couldn't. I found myself wandering down the road to her flat, knowing full well she was no longer there. Becky would be living her dream now. I just soaked myself in the memories. I was a little relieved when my parents sold the mansion in Florida and moved to New York. All I saw was her face, in the pool, the kitchen, my walk in wardrobe. I couldn't even face the music room. Becky was everywhere. I stopped listening to the CD Alice had given me for my birthday. If I was going to get through this, I had to remove every trace of her, so I did.

Alex and I were married on a beach in Mexico, against a glistening blue sea and pure white sand beach six months after I had accepted hisproposal. It was a rushed wedding, but I had chosen my life now, what was the point of putting off the inevitable?

A girl is meant to remember her wedding day right? Funny, how I hardly remember a single thing. Apart from the green eyes that were imbedded in my mind the entire day. I knew it was stupid, but a part of me wanted that fairy tale ending. Where Prince Charming comes in to save the love of her life; Becky never turned up on my wedding day. I wasn't living in a fairy tale anymore.