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Chap 8!

Irum's POV:

I don't know why but today I was feeling so down. I stayed in my room for the whole day. After praying asr I just sat on my bed and I never got the idea I was crying on my bed, when suddenly Ayesha unnie came in,
"Irummmm girl see this....ah uh what happened?", she said and quickly came to me and hugged me.
"Why is my baby crying, did someone in the university bother u. Tell me their name and I will uproot them from this planet.", she said and I held her tightly.
"Unnie I wanna go back to my parents. I don't wanna live here. I fear I will put my Iman in danger.", I said sobbing loudly.
"What happened atleast tell me. Don't u trust me?"
"Unnie u know I did a really big sin."
"What happened, what did u do?", she asked worriedly.
"Unnie I was befriending a non Muslim. And it was a boy. Allah will be so angry from me.", I said to which unnie made me sit straight and said,
"Now listen to me Irum. I will tell u something.", she said and wiped my tears then spoke,
"I am Hafiz e Quran. I learned Quran by heart along with proper translation when I was 13 years old and Alhamdulliah it has been 6 years now that each and every word is still in my heart. U saw me wearing headphones all the time right, most people think that I listen to songs but in reality it's Quranic recitation that is going on and I recite the Quran in my heart daily so that I don't forget it. Ever since my childhood the image of Allah has been presented to me by my parents as the one who loves u alot, who is there to hold ur tears and ease ur heart when it is in pain. And this thing developed immense love for Allah inside me. I always told myself that no matter what happens who comes in my life or leaves it's Allah who will always stay with me, love me and forgive me. The thing will South Asian countries is that ever since the birth of a child they are told if u do this Allah will punish u, if u do that Allah will get angry from u. I mean who are u to judge that Allah will get angry from me or will not forgive me. Did u get personal msg on insta or WhatsApp from Allah, nauzubillah*. No na, parents build inside a child that Allah is someone who is only full of rage and anger. I am not saying Allah doesn't get angry if we do his disobedience or that we shouldn't fear him. Ofc we should fear him as he is our Lord, the greatest of all, the most powerful but he is the forgiver. More than his anger it's his mercy towards us. Just tell me one thing Irum, eversince our birth we committed so many sins. We didn't pray, we didn't fast, we lied, we backbite, we fight, we curse, we do so much wrong, if Allah would only punish us then we might have not been alive till now. Becoz then he would punish us for every small deed.  But no Allah is the most merciful, the loving one. He is our Lord and it's our duty to obey him but he is our friend as well. Don't judge urself before Allah does. Don't judge Allah's mercy. Who told u that Allah is angry from u. This thought is enough to prove that he isn't becoz from those whom he is angry they don't care to even think about this. This is Shaitan who is putting such false assumptions about Allah in ur heart. U get a chance to prostrate before ur Lord 5 times a day, this is a sign that he wants u to fall in sujood Infront of him. Allah only allows them to bow in front of him whom he wants. U arent allow to make such assumptions about Allah, u think his mercy is small Infront of ur sins."
"Astagfirullah unnie I can never even imagine that!"
"So why r u stressing urself. Let me confort u by some Quranic verses. The words of Allah so that u can realize Allah is loving not the one always holding wrath.

وَرَحْمَتِي وَسِعَتْ كُلَّ شَيْءٍ.                               (Part of Surah Al Araf ayat 7)

and My Mercy encompasses everything.

وَإِن تَعُدُّوا نِعْمَةَ اللَّهِ لَا تُحْصُوهَا ۗ إِنَّ اللَّهَ لَغَفُورٌ رَّحِيمٌ(16:18)

And if you should count the favours of Allah, you would never be able to number them. Indeed, Allah is Forgiving and Merciful

بَلَىٰۚ مَنۡ أَوۡفَىٰ بِعَهۡدِهِۦ وَٱتَّقَىٰ فَإِنَّ ٱللَّهَ يُحِبُّ ٱلۡمُتَّقِينَ(3:76)