we are people // 5sos

seven - luke

yeah, it hurt, what she had said.

i slammed my locker shut, not a smirk on this fucking face.

was i that bad? why was it so hard to get her? most of the time it was easy for me to get girls, just by my good looks.

but i guess she was different.

i was mad at myself the whole day, and what she had said was right, and i did feel bad.

"dude, whats wrong? you haven't been fucking talking the whole day" calum nudged my shoulder

"you should be more upset than i am" 

"you're right" he just stared at me, expressionless, although i could see his eyes well up with tears

"calum, this is your fault you know?" i say, quite harshly, but he's done too many bad things and he hurt ryan, so bad

"fuck off, i know" the tears he held were now becoming a river

"c'mon, lets go to cream bean" i smiled 

calum is my best friend and will be no matter what, under any circumstances

at cream bean

we were just about to enter, until i saw her again, our eyes meeting like the first time.

bryn, looking beautiful as always, i wanted to apologise and ask her out on a date.

she'll fucking say no! its not that easy luke!

god, i'm a terrible person.

"decaf cap please" i ordered after calum 

"that would be 4 dollars and 40 cents" the cute girl said, giving me a flirty smirk, but i didn't return it like i usually would, she isn't bryn...

i have really changed haven't i? what has she done to me....

after i gave the server (IDK) my money, cal and i waited until my name had been called out.

"i'll be right back" i said, leaving calum alone in the line, feeling the slightest bit bad but i hopefully won't regret it

i jog towards the entrance of the cafe, opening the door. 

as i thought i could apologise to her, i couldn't.

i was too late because she was no longer there.

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"oh my god what is YOUR PROBLEM?" violet yells at me whilst laying beside me on my bed

"look violet, i just don't feel like it okay?" i look at her for a split second, then back at the ceiling

"you always usually do!" she sits up, staring directly at me

"don't you just want to talk for a while? like, about our lives, how crazy it is and how luck we are" i'm a very different luke

"what the fuck is up with you right now? i am one of the HOTTEST most POPULAR girls in school and you diss me like that?! you're a fucking idiot!" she slides of the bed and begins to dress herself 

"bye violet" 

"whatever!" she walks towards the door of my room and slams it shut.

yes, i was about to have sex with violet macintosh, until i realised it wasn't right and had to stop what i was doing. 

if i want a girl, i need to focus on her. and only her.

i'm a different luke now and for once i'm proud of myself, for being a better human being.

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chapters are really short I'm SORRY