Heartdriven: Too Driven To Drive

19. Afterglow

    Feeling completely restless from the fight, Alice had been unable to sleep, only laying in wait of Sebastian to return. No word of where he was going of how long he would be gone, he had just left... The tears had stopped coming and laid dry on her cheeks, when she finally heard the door open after lying in wait for hours. She kept still in the bed, waiting to see if he would say anything... maybe he thought she was asleep. She hadn't moved and the lights were off. It sounded like he was tiptoeing around as he was undressing.
    He finally laid down in the bed behind her and put his hand on her hip, quite firmly, and snuggled his head in her hair to kiss her neck. She was slightly worried he was drunk, given this sudden interest in her, but he didn't smell like alcohol. She laid in wait a little longer, to see how far he would go, if the interest was genuine or he just needed to cuddle with her before falling asleep. But he had been close to her long enough now that she at least felt sure it wasn't just drunken shenanigans.
    She turned to him and put her hand to his bare chest. Oh, he was fully naked. He had crawled in under the blanket to her and she could feel his skin against hers. He was slightly sweaty but she didn't mind, he always felt warm against her skin. He slowly and very gently kissed her... and kept kissing her like he had been missing that. She let go for a moment for air, and breathed in his. "I'm sorry I was being mean earlier. I don't like the way I reacted. I was frustrated and took it out on you. Please forgive me."
    "Shhh...," he kissed her again, "Are you still naked?"
    "Yes."
    His hands moved from her hips to her buttocks and pulled close, "I want to have sex with you." He kept fondling around her body and moved her leg over his hip, holding her thigh in position as he got closer between her legs and she could feel his lust mirrored by her own desire.
    "Are you sure this time? I don't want to get all worked up if...", he silenced her again, "Shhh... Alice, stop talking, for Christ's sake. Do you want to have sex with me?"
    "More than anything."
    He locked his lips to hers and rolled on top of her, maybe it had gotten too warm under that blanket, and she ripped it off them, giving her hands a free feel for his buttocks as he laid pressed between her legs. Her inner thighs felt very ticklish from the way his body was moving around on top of her, his constant sucking on her face, moving down her neck. Her hair felt sticky from his sweat and saliva, sticking to her skin as he went further and further down. She tried hanging on to his shoulders and hold him in position on top of her, but he seemed very eager and interested to investigate between her legs.
    "Lie down and relax," he commanded.
    "But I don't want that," pointing downwards, knowing what he had in mind, "I just want you to fuck me."
    "As you wish." He grabbed at her thighs and pulled her close and up to his groin, making her giggle in the surprise of how fast that went. He was kneeling over her, with her legs around his waist, and resting over his thighs... she felt like she was floating as the only part of her body touching the bed was her toes and shoulders upwards. His hand felt down over her body, touching her from abdomen to breast, and as he cupped her, he held onto her and pushed himself inside of her. Her head fell backwards and she grabbed to both sides, for anything, only getting hold of a pillow, but she had to hold something, she wanted to rip something.
    Still touching her breast, rather tightly, he moved his hips into her... again and again... already making her gasp as she was moving along to his body. He was making sure to keep her in position, holding her very firmly in his grasp as he thrust into her and she had no balance of her own, succumbing totally to his control and desires.
    "I think... I'm going to... scream..."
    "Do you want me to stop?" He didn't.
    She laughed a bit but it was covered up by her breath. "Why would I... want that when it... feels soooo good..."
    He chuckled and moved to hold onto her thighs, still pressing her against himself, but crawled on top of her, carefully lying her hips down to the bed, remaining inside of her as he laid down on her. Not moving for moment, he moved her hair from her face and kissed her. Stroking and holding his hand over her head, she let go of the pillow and traced her fingers down his back as he continued the motions.
    It felt like she was staying in that moment forever. Maybe she had missed it so much, wanted it so much, that it felt neverending. She didn't want it to end, but when it did, it was all she had desired. Her whole body was on fire but it didn't hurt. She felt the convulsions of her hips from having him inside and as he finished, explosions were sent up through her body and blasting out in multicoloured fireworks... or maybe it was the dizzy spots in her eyes. She tried not to scratch him, but damn it, he took a toll of it, as she grabbed onto his back and pressed him down on her until she was ready to let go of him.
    Finally letting the last breaths escape, she started to loosen up and stroked over where her nails had dug into him, trying to soothe her damage. He was kissing her shoulder as she let go of him and laid back in the bed, relaxed and satisfied. And he kissed her again.
    "Your upper lip is sweaty," he drew his finger across and wiped it in the sheets.
    Her eyes followed to the sheets and the imprints of her body left behind, "I feel wet all over..."
    "I bet."
    "Oh shut up!", she gave his shoulder a shove and attempted to rolled away from him, but he grabbed onto her and pulled her right back to him, pulling her closer and keeping his arm around her shoulder, making sure she was laying next to him, and indeed she was, snuggled all in and comfortable against him. Even if he was sticky.
    He moved the blanket to cover her up. He still felt warm, but he had clearly felt her body cooling down and tucked her in. She placed her palm on his cheek, forcing his face to her so she could kiss him again, "I'm sorry I have been so unfair. I guess I'm just constantly expecting things to go back to normal... but 'normal' was so long ago, that I don't even know what it is anymore. Maybe this is our new normal... but I miss you."
    As he had struggled explaining himself before, he seemed to have cleared his head and was more coherent, "I didn't want to say something and make you think it was because I didn't want to have sex with you... because I do."
    "I could tell you did.... whenever I was near you," moving her arm around his ribs and tightening the grip a bit, as if she could get any closer to him than she already was, "That's why it was so confusing that you didn't."
    "I should have been honest with you sooner," he felt regretful about that, at least.
    Even if it had hurt her, she had come around to understand his intentions, but feeling still he should have shared them with her. "I am being honest with you, so I would expect the same in return, and I didn't like that you kept your feelings from me... especially when it revolves your feelings towards me."
    "They haven't changed," rushing out of his mouth.
    She looked up to him, the big eyes of his looking back down to her and she felt completely whole with him, "Now and forever?"
    "Now and forever." His lips didn't stay away from her for long, as she was met by them once more and few times after that, before she finally found rest in his arms.

    A wiggle at her leg, she opened one eye to find Sebastian pulling at her leg. He was already up and dressed, while she had been completely passed out.
    "We need to get going."
    Still keeping only one eye open, "Where?"
    "To the track. We've got practice," he chuckled and shook his head at her confusion, but he seemed in a better mood after their talk. "Get up and get some breakfast."
    He gave her naked butt a smack as she crawled out of the bed and she shoved his hand away. It was way too early for that kind of thing.

    She still felt sleepy as they were driving to the circuit, but Sebastian was tapping his hands on the steering wheel along to the music on the radio. She was still going through the morning grumps and turned down the volume of the music.
    "How long do you think you could sleep, if I didn't wake you up?", he gave her thigh a squeeze as she sat balled up in her seat.
    She really didn't want to speak but she wanted to talk with him, as he was clearly trying to bring some energy back into her, "Where did you go last night?"
    "I went to the lobby bar. I wanted to have a drink, but changed my mind. Then I ran into Kimi and we talked for a while," that made him smile. They had always gotten along well, Kimi being one of the most welcoming to him when he first joined F1, and continuing his support even as others became jealous of his success. Kimi wasn't.
    "What did he say?"
    "That I was being an idiot."
    "I always liked him." She leaned over and gave him a kiss on the cheek. He was her idiot.
    "You know I was thinking—", he interrupted her, "Oh careful," making her give his shoulder a nudge before she continued, "I was thinking, maybe we should take a break for a bit. A little vacation. Get away from everything."
    "Where do you want to go?", at least he wasn't brushing off the idea... that was positive.
    "I didn't get that far. I didn't want to start planning unless you were onboard. I just think it... I think it would be good for us. The both of us," trying not to sound like she was only trying to get him away from the stress of F1.
    "It could be our honeymoon. I have a few weeks off after China... we could go to the cabin!", he was already sounding eager and planning, making her excited.
    "You have a cabin?"
    He sounded chuffed at the suggestion, "No. But my sister does, with her husband. She is always offering it up, I'm sure they would happy for us to use it for a week rather than it just standing empty."
    "Okay. Yeah, that sounds fun."
    And he just kept going, "It's in a forest near a beach or something... I don't remember, it's been a long time since I was there. So we should bring swimsuits. Or not. It's a private area," he was being very suggestive but she was really into the idea.
    "Sign me up."