My love fantasy roommate

Chapter : 3 - Confession ( PART-1)

We made our self inside the classroom just in time before the professor arrived in . We assembled back to our seats . Larisa sat with her cousin Finn , kinda disappointed but cousins right they are blood related. No point of being possessive here don't have to either. Maybe I am because she is much only friend I knew....
"Focus on class...Calastia.." I said to myself and started concentrating on my classes. I class went on good but started to get bored. As a med student I shouldn't have said that but , I am a person with curiosity I don't wait till someone explain me to that topic. At that rate I would be ahead from writing my exams . Plus the professor is just going on so slow ...it's started to feel like a lullaby. I assume everyone is feeling the same judging by their expressions and their posture on the chair.
I just sighed and waited for the bell start to ring .

The classes went on as it got over . I stretched my self and caught up with Larisa who was talking to Finn. I gave Finn a  gentle smile and went on a conversation till we came out of the university. I was breaking my conversation time to time as I was just looking down zoning out looking at my shoes . I was always into small conversations but I knew this would not build up my good relationships with the people I adore. But the thing is I don't know what to talk about. I always answer to the topic and end. Just. Like. That.  I suck for sure...
"So ....Calastia.." Larisa called me as I hummed at her response." Yea?..."  I said as she continued.
"What your plan on summer camp....did you finish packing stuff ?" She said exclaiming excitingly looking at Finn giving tiny jumps . I completely forgot today was the last day of university as Kevin told me . The camp will start tomorrow.  I don't always stay updated even though I attend the university everyday.I wish I was as enthusiastic as her .
"Oh...uh well I am not coming ." I said casually. Larisa was probably processing for a moment as after a few seconds and came back to her senses and looked at Finn who was also not as shocked as her ." What?! " she said loudly made my ear burst for a second. Yeah we  definitely don't need to worry if break a loud speaker ...when we have her .
"Yeah..." I gave shrug and a small smile at her . Larisa was not convinced with that .
"Why?!" She extended her arms. Never seen a person who is so shocked just because not coming for the thing that is not so important specially for a camp. Finn on the other hand finally spoke.
"What happened?...don't you like going?! " he said concerned.
"What?... no ... not like that ." I said reassuring him . Well it's true I don't like going but for some reason I had no feeling to take a step outside of my zone yet after my dad's death. I can say the real  reason I don't wanna leave my house because that's the only thing that I had left memories with . And it's hard to even think of leaving for a while even coming from work . That would be a silly thing if someone hears it , but I don't care. But that's the emotion that I hold for him. If I had the time ....i would spend it In my home..with my dad...
"Then? What wrong ?...is everything fine?" Larisa concernedly placed her hand on my shoulder . I gave her a gentle smile .
"Nothing wrong...and..everything is fine. I just don't feel like going." I told her but her face did not give a slight change. "You know...I rather stay with my pillow ." I giggled. That was the last throw of rock of chance to convince her .
But she just sighed "So is your brother also staying back with you?" I shake my head .
"Nope....he is going."
"Your mom ?"
"She would but she have work assigned to her ...so she is leaving for a month." Larisa stayed quiet for a bit and spoke. "So...your alone?" She said as I nodded.
"In that big ass mansion of yours?!" She was shook . There you go and loud speaker , at this rate my eardrums will explode anytime. And what's with the question of her .Well duh ! it's my house why is she scared ?
"Don't you feel scared?" I laughed at her question." Pfftt....why would I feel scared at my own house?"
"Well that's true though but ...once I visited your place I was scared to leave you myself alone ." She said shivered in fear.I giggled. She cares for me and gets scared at the same time. Finn was hiding his tiny laugh when Larisa caught his attention." What ya laughing at huh ?"
"Well...I sometimes think how did you end up in a med school when you're this dumb?" I giggled at Finn's statement. Larisa glared at him and said "I will deal with ya right after we get this thing over with." But Finn continued laughing. Larisa paid no attention and looked back at me .
" Calastia...you know I can stay back if you want . I don't feel safe you being alone. I am hearing news that there are some people from the underground mafias ..criminals or whatever they are wandering around the city and specifically, focusing on people who are with big houses." I was silent for a while as she was explaining as she was talking about the recent cases . I thought for a second to ask her to say back but she worked hard these days and she deserves a break. That's would be cruel of me to stop others relaxation just for my company even though they insist too.
"Nah girl ...why are you saying that? Go enjoy yourself ." I said smiling brightly. If it's the one thing I want is to see her happy ....is with no stress and that I gave to see .
"But—" I stopped her placing my index finger on her lips ." It's not that hard to stay myself alone...." I continued leaving my finger from her and smiled " Besides...I can take care of my self....i am no kid ya know."
Larisa sighed " ok...if that's what you want." She smiled . Finn spoke " Take care of yourself then ...it's not safe here as Larisa told...they are cases registered here increasing in Toronto ."
" Don't worry." I nodded so did Finn. Suddenly I heard a loud honk as I flinched so did Larisa and Finn. It's was Kevin .Ugh !...so loud .
"What?!" I yelled in the distance at him. He was puzzled at my question.
"What do you mean what? It's time to go . It's getting late and I have to go pack my stuff. I don't have to be late because of you . Hop in fast will ya ! " He said pissed . I rolled my eyes at him as he got astonished my attitude. He should by the way.
"Hey!...don't roll you eyes at me I am telling you!" I got even more annoyed by him .
"Fine...MOM!." I said as Larisa and Finn giggled. Kevin yelled again but not at me but at Finn, popping out of the window at the driver seat and waving at him.
"Hey Finn...bro! Don't forget you owe me a drink for doing your dare !" Kevin smirked at him.
"Yea...sure whatever." Finn said giving no shit about him. I looked at Kevin  as well as Finn . He was confused at me looking  at him as I was examining him.
"What?" He said scratching his head . Larisa also got curious at his attitude.
"Dare...what dare?" I said.
" I dared him to propose a grandma by first stealing her purse . Because of that he was caught by a cop and almost went in bars ." He said it with no hesitation . I was for a moment silent and smiled in menace. I think this information will be useful to blackmail him to do my work. I came back to my thoughts and thanked him as he nodded. Larisa was too laughing her head off . Finn is  one of the the closest friends with Kevin . As once in Kevin's life time Finn is the only person I find normal than the rest of my brother crack headed friends. He knows my brother very well that he got used to his behavior.
"Yo...what happened after that ?" She said curiously laughing.
"Then he was—" he was about to start as I interrupted him. "You know I would love to hear guys but I have too go ...this asshole is waiting. If I go anymore late I will get cooked by mom ." I said. They both nodded.
"Take care Calastia...be careful." She said .
"You too girl have fun.." I said . We hugged each other and said ourselves goodbye waving to each other till I headed to wards Kevin car. I seated myself inside. As Kevin spoke " took you long enough ." I did not say anything. I just closed my eyes ,as kevin started the engine.  I felt he saw me not speak but he did not say a word and continued driving.
I was tired . Not physically but emotionally. My thoughts running...a month...in my house...all alone no one around. Me...and four walls ...no with my dad. A month is just a small period of only thirty days  , but for me it's the longest days I am actually staying alone for my self with a so called friend of Kevin's . It's not hard is it ? Or will it ? Ugh! What am I thinking? Why am i thinking ? Just stop thinking about it ....I am just gonna pretend that he doesn't exist. That's it easy .
Just me and my dad memories to wander around and make my a month relaxing.
For myself ...myself only ......