My love fantasy roommate

Chapter: 4 - Memories

After having a long misunderstanding feeling with my mom and finally being sorted out ,I came out of her room and making my way towards mine . This feels less heavy inside my heart that I have been holding on to it for so long . Kevin called me out from his room as I already passed by his . "Yo!...beak face..." I got stopped for a second and went back facing him ." What ?" I gave him an annoying look. He is used to it so am I . "Come over here for a second." He said folding his clothes for his summer camp. His room was so messy of all those posters of ugly rock band with rotten faces almost half way falling down. sticking on the walls for their dear life , and his gaming table set was the worst , all scattered chips and cans littered around it and still the mini trash can was empty. Then why trash can is made up for if he is using his table like one? The clothes specially are more scattered around, on the floor , on bed . Gosh even kids have much better cleanliness than him .

"Why...? I leaned against his doorstep arms crossed over my chest looking at him. He to cross's his arms and looked at me in a judgement kind of way .
"Do I have to tell you ?....i told you to just come over here ." He said in a controlling attitude. One day my time will come to beat his ass for sure ...one day for sure . I rolled my eyes and went inside to his room. Kevin left his clothes aside ,sighed and came towards me in a serious expression. Why is he so serious?Did I do something wrong? Nope for now ...no. I was roaming in my own thoughts for a while when he suddenly hugged me with no caution. I flinched by the sudden action. His grip got a little tighter but not suffocating tight ...he was quiet, I felt he is not ok . I too placed a hand on his back patting a bit . I am not that kind a sister who yanks a kind gesture from a brother. Though we have our deferences ,we still are connected to ourselves. But personally,Kevin is not kind of person who shows his feelings much , this hug tells me more. God knows what happened to him...

"Kevin...what happened?" I said concerned plastered on my face . But there was no response. I took my silence again for a few seconds and then asked Kevin again.
"Bro...Kevin, what's wrong what happened?" I managed to say again .God please tell me he is fine. But Kevin finally spoke still hugging me . "Let it out ...Calastia , you have been holding your feelings too long now . I know you were not completely honest with mom earlier, I know what's bothering you. Just let your tears out sis....please.." he said silently. My heart started to sink faster. My eyes started no bounds in stopping it now. I did try to hold my treats earlier in mom's room , but Kevin's words impacted me more than ever . I bursted my tears as soon as I heard his approval. I felt so weak for a second ...no every time . Before I completely did not let my feelings go. I felt it was not the right place to take it out , but when Kevin said ,i knew where I had to open up . I think this was the feeling I was suffering the most completely.Kevin released from his hug as I was head down crying. Kevin held my head directing me to face him. He was not crying, but I could see how much hurt and pain in his eyes .
"I heard you guys talking." I still couldn't stop crying. Kevin came close again this time placing my head on his chest. I could feel his hoodie with getting wet with my tears . Kevin patted my head consoling me ." I know it's hard for you Calastia.... Ever since dad died I know it's unbelievable to accept it that he is actually dead. I know the emotion and love you hold for him , but now it's time for you to let it go ." He brushed my hair he sighed and continued " You don't know how much I have been through too....it did not feel the same as before, everything changed and we to have too."

Even though I tried to stop , but it's hard to forget the tragic incident of dad's dead body horrifying body covered in blood , scars all over ,bullets shorts holed into him . We were traumatized by it . We did not leave the house for a week after the incident. After reporting to the police and fess days after the investigation they came to the conclusion that it was a burglary. It did not make any sense of their report. How come did they not attract the house but a man who had nearly nothing holding onto himself . I remember when mom made a request for re-investigate the case , i authorities just said there is no further evidence to proceed the investigation. We know it's not true but mom did not fight for it she knew it was no use either. Even though it was 20 years ago it's till haunts me to this day.

"I-I-just can't it's not easy to be said than done...can't you see, we were so happy back then b-but now it's empty, the house is empty ." I said tears rolling with no limits. Kevin cupped my cheeks and tried to wipe my tears away. "I know Calastia....but do you think dad would like us being sad . What would make the difference of us crying. Will crying brings dad back? " "Life is isn't what we always think we want to be ....its a an obstacle course... there are ups and downs and...and there are who even loose there life for it ...even good people . It doesn't mean you or me anyone would stay alive at the end . Everything has a reason, we just have to find things out for ourselves . I think it's just what dads wants us to do ." He said as he guided me at his bed as I was looking up at the ceiling.
"You said everything is empty in this house....it is but even though we have a smaller house than this but always lingering with this uneasy memories, no matter where you live it's still haunts us. We just have to pend our time in some things in order to just for get it...at least." He finally looked at me , sniffing . I felt my face swollen with all the intense crying . "Mom is working hard for us doing everything she can she can do....she is trying to be strong for us . Remember that she too trying to forget about it. So let's just move on ...." I was silent. Just processing everything he said .
"I hope you understand Calastia.." he said patting my shoulder." You're a strong girl Calastia and I am proud to be you brother no matter what." He said cheerfully smiling.
"Yea...I know." I smiled too brushing away all my tears.
"That's my sis...now move your sitting on my clothes. I have to pack." He pushed me gently." Ow!...dude!" I said .
"That's for slapping me on my shoulder today morning." He said smirking. I said looking at him "You could be a good philosopher you know....where did get this from?" I asked him sarcastically.
"I know right...no wonder I am good at this . And it came naturally of course." He said saying proudly.We looked at each other and just laughed like idiots.
After a while I left Kevin's room and entered my room. I freshen my self up and got on my self in my pajamas , got on my bed lying and facing the ceiling. What Kevin said was true . It's hard but we have to move on. I don't know about my dream, I know it won't go fast until I solve my self about it. I don't know what it is about...maybe dad wants me to know something. Dad did not have his peaceful death rather than a torturous and painful one. Where ever he is he knows what happened and the truth of his faith. Till then I have to wait patiently and leave it to the unsolved truth that's about to unfold. Till then I have to remember me and my dad's best memories that I had with him to ease my self, which made me drift to my peaceful slumber.....

Author
Hellooo...Beautiful readers!!
Quite a big chapter ....isn't it.
Well...iets see what happens to calastia where does the 'truth' unfolds ( inserts Harry Potter theme song). I hope you guys love the story so far. I will try my best to update you guys with more interesting chapters with unexpected twists.
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